The Edge of Glory

Muhammadiyah

2011-12-31T11:33:00.000+07:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

*blows a trumpet*

aku kan ngikut Muhammadiyah HaHaHa :D

25 Things

2011-12-25T12:58:00.000+07:00

BMTH. zombie's smiles. radical haircut. sharp eyes. handsome boy.

gifts. browny. sausage cake. abon. blueberry. Christmas Eve.

pinky stuffs. Devi Laoda. a letter. headband with pink ribbon. trinkets.

various and perfect smiles. webcam. good light-intensity.

twin. Bobby Pratama. v-necks.

liked by my seniors. quote. wiser.

Blood, Sweat, and Tears

2011-12-23T19:59:00.004+07:00

source: Tumblr

Hi. So today was a report-card-retrieval-day. (I don't know if I've made a good grammar but ok.) I rushed to the bathroom, when it was exactly like, 4:00 AM. (and played 4:00 AM by Avenged Sevenfold) then I texted all of my friends in my phonebook, just to see what would they act about today. And the most answer was; "Oh, it's all our parents' problem!". Sigh. I decided not to go to school today, just because I'm a leadership of my class, I had to go. Going to school with parents' seemed so funny according to me, and all your friends were like; "WTF, why should I go" lol that made a sense. Today was supposed to be a holiday but I lied to all of my friends that they had to follow their parents' yay :D

I met Dian and Luluk, and they were pokerface while seeing me, (m44dness). I acted so cool till they screamed on me and I was so pokerface too -_-

I didn't even have a feeling that I'd be on the first place but yesh. I asked to all of my friends if they've known the result but the answer was nothing. My mom signed at the absent-book and I saw my teacher coming through us all, he brought a pile of report cards and a paper of the ranks.

He looked at me like I had a debt on him but I ignored and distracted myself to see what was happening outside my class. weird student. In another class I saw Layyina was happy and flying to the roof, lol jk that's not true. I bearded her in her den to ask what occurred there then she replied to me that she got a first place. Mmh congratulation :D

I waited for mine, but I overheard what my teacher preached about.

" and we'll hear for the 10 highest average in the class. listen to me carefully "
" the first rank is going to ........................................... Bobby Pratama with an average 85,50!!!!! "
" the second rank is going to Prila Widyanisa with 84,38 "
" the third, the fourth, the fifth, blablablabla "

WOHOO I was jumping off my seat and got fallen and sigh. That was beyond my wildest dream! One of my friend said that I'd get a second rank over all of my friends. [and the first would fall to Layyina]. But that was all worth it :') I've gone the extra mile; all of blood, sweat, and tears I've dropped on; and I've killed two birds with one stone! Got a first rank and second rank over all. Sigh, rants :D

OH AND I HAVE DOWNLOADED A FUNNY AND MAD VIDEO!
this made me going crazy (and you should)

Ok bye nice people, bye all.
Have a gruhwreeeat holiday!
Merry Christmast all, hohoo!
xoBobz.

ps : I've never got the first rank so I was all excited as fuck -_-

Mother's Day

2011-12-22T19:54:00.000+07:00

you came from the back of the door
and brought me a bottle of hot-milk
you came and tote me and we took a walk
seeing the moon, you sang me a lullaby
that was so convenience and i was all flying
but then i got dropped to your lap

you hugged me tight
wouldn't lose me
wouldn't leave me alone
in the darkness of the night
in the howl of those wolfs
and you brightened my soul

you knew that i was weak
and my soul was all empty
without your smile.

and i wish i could accompany you for anytime
till the world's crackin' up
and the mountains start theirselves exploding to pieces
till i breath for the last time...

Happy Mother's Day :*

December

2011-12-01T17:52:00.001+07:00

" Pas als het Zomer in December is, als het begint te sneeuwen in Mei; en als de avond valt zo 's morgens vroeg; komt jij terug bij mij "
Zomer In December - Nick En Simon

hello December, it's been a year since we last met and now I wish I hadn't met you but... Time goes so fast, flies like a rocket to the moon, drowns like a ton of irons in the middle of the sea, like a tear that falls down through my cheek. *rants*

Recently I've been spying on someone's facebook! Hm Hm Hm.... But it's not like what I wanted before. Oh, and I'll get my Axel test after having Semester Exams!! Wish me luck guise!! Let's jump over the calendar. December has released so many memories. Ehm, don't wanna say it but I'll make poems! Yes. And I may have to buy my own happiness by catching my achievement. Hmh, it won't be easy but ok. Err. These days I often shuffle my iTunes and why does it always get Bloody Mary by Lady Gaga? o_o Umh will this december be like it? Grahahahaha!!!

No, I still wish Bloody Mary is just another story. Yay.
Oh oh guys and I have found a mysterious boy who's posted in my last story, he was my senior in my Junior high school and he was once living in XD just like me, err. And what made me startled, was his fate. GRRRRHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHHHAHHAAHHAAHAHAHHAHA ok what. [he should be my twin].

But what I disliked most to him is he's super annoying as fuck.

Battle

2011-11-22T01:42:00.002+07:00

source: Tumblr

Hi bloggy!! No new single post in weeks. This site was in hiatus, yes. On December 8^th I'm going to have my examinations and get a test to join an Axel class. As you know that Axel class is just for a really superior people and I think I am not but... Phew. What. I am? Think I have done nothing but why not? My momma forces me to join, she said that it'd be good for my future and so and so.

I am actually all alone. Last week was my day to get an IQ test to show which class would you be in ok.

These days I often made poems, themed dead, skull, broken veins, and all the other filthy things yew. Got two books from my ECC club because I won a pride *winks*. It's actually sat-nite now, where people usually do everything they like, like dating with their boyfriends/girlfriends, go to cinemas especially watching BREAKING DAWN [poor me, I haven't watched it :c somebody pls just kidnap me and take me to Matos to watch it], and or just stay at home, sleep with their cats and muse their laments. No, it's not counted btw!! I am all interested in watching that film. Have done reading the novel. Yes. Took a couple of months for me to accomplish it.

Two days ago I started noting a writing in title of "Mysterious". There I said that there was a boy who picked me up and brought me to school. I didn't even know him but he's exactly one of my friends in XI grade. Pulsar is so cool. Blacky motorcycle and I want it to be mine o_o I think I can be cool, using that motor to pick my uh-not-a-girlfriend-but-my-ex up to school everyday xD I'd be all handsome!!! *rants* yes.

The One That Got Away

2011-11-15T16:05:00.001+07:00

" in another life, I would make you stay..
so I don't have to say, you were the one that got away..
the one that got away... " THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY - Katy Perry.

Eew, another good song from my mommy Katy :3 and have heard that she'd be coming to Jakarta, January 19^th 2012. It means that I'd be losing another rare chance to meet a superstar. No cool x( 'cause whatever reason I say, my parents STILL won't allow me to go. *sigh* dying.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

no, you just don't understand how I love Katy since I was in 9^th grade!! Used to sing her songs and going crazy. Now, when she'll come, I can't go. It's just kind of a heartbreaking moment. From the 650K price of the ticket [last info I read on internet]. I reaaaalllyyyyy wanna go, but mmh ok. I can understand *gasp*. But behind the sorrow, there came a happiness in photobox :D enclose a good one;

scanner sucks.

And yes, after school hurriedly chased down the bus and went to Matos. Bought nothing but the glasses! Waited for the French Fries till 8PM and yes o.o was home late. Pic soon. Another day to hang out with friends :D I guess. So don't get me wrong. I am just a freshmen from the High School, wanting to look for a happiness ~~and love~~ :D see you soon darling.

anyway, this might be a post-depression of self.
Love, xxo.

Triple Eleven

2011-11-11T06:52:00.000+07:00

This morning all I need is just a cup of a coffee and maybe a cat, falling asleep in my lap. And I'd bring a book, there's a furnace, and I'd look at the window, feel safe, not exposed to the rain. Sound. Maybe I could memorize my memories over the years. Maybe when it was on High School. Or when I was dating someone who has been owned by my friend. Sarcasm. Ya. I am 50 years old. I don't wanna die alone. Je ne veux pas mourier toute soule. I could wait on mountain tops in Paris cold. The Past. it sucks if I can't handle. So many reasons to live a lonely life. Boring. Unconscious. Sick. I feel so disrespected and underestimated by people around me. They're not human beings. They're monsters who eat my past.

Idul Adha

2011-11-06T09:12:00.000+07:00

SELAMAT HARI DAGING SEMUANYA!!!!

*covers nose with a wet tissue*

No, I am just sitting here, blogging and facebook-ing and not seeing those goats and cows getting slaughtered! If only you could live longer than now, it'd mean nothing :Dv

Cheers!!

love, ẞobz!

White

2011-11-02T19:29:00.000+07:00

New skin after a long time with blacky effect and too many unused effects. So now come with a new theme of " SWAG ". Not to mention Justin Bieber ok.

Social Life

2011-10-29T08:39:00.001+07:00

R E P O S T

" Is this the actually day when we all commemorate the national language month? Then I do it xD
It's celebrated on October, 29^th. The day after Sumpah Pemuda Day was held. Not to mention unpleasant ceremony xD yays. So today I have had to do these shitloads:
Sing and read a poem, in theme of an Indonesian struggles to the independence. And do some photographs, due to my job as an amateur reporter. Sounds so uncool according to me. But as a student we all have to do this shitload. Meh.

No photos nor videos cause I am all watching this theater and blogging. cool, am I? xP more posts are comin' soon. "

I've been back! Now what! A month without any 'quality' post and I am back with a mount of stories you should hear and get crazy with it. From eyes, down to the heart. From heart, drops tears. From tears invent a blood. Fresh blood. Mmh kay.

Photos from Bulan Bahasa [chose some good ones] ::

So cool ♥ ♥ ♥ Photoshop has made it perfect and so :P got a video that you can watch on my facebook. [yes, i won't upload twice]. klolthx.

Mittwoch gefallen

2011-10-19T14:17:00.000+07:00

Wheehaa, first time in my post using German in the title xD ok so I wanna preach about 'Wednesday and all the Accidents inside'. The title seems to be horror but it actually doesn't. Today I just had a German exam but it was actually unfair, according to me. Why? It used an " Open Book " theory. The questions were so easy and I didn't even cheat. I mean, it would never be fair to everyone else who has more knowledge about this language. That was named an exam. An exam is used for quantifying how further you've got. Maybe about Zahlen, Kennenlernen, or even its Grammatik. I was pokerface. and wo0o0o0o0o0o0o00o0o0o0o0o00o00ott. Later I had a " Dance Class " so I formed a group consist of some lazy persons. What a pity. I made an entire story of the new World War III and yes. Fiction. The teacher asked for a whole class to practice it for a next week. And what made it worse was when my group went to the stage, my friends indolently performed it. I was so embarrassed and I wish I never knew them. I loudly said this in front of the class:

We might be friends, but in getting high scores, we're foes. Oh no. Can you distinguish about friends and fiends at the same time? Oh oo I don't think so~ Not that I underestimated you but heeeyyy we're in High School now! More patient you are, more people will step on your face. Get it, dawg.

Mmmh it sounds so cliche but I said it in English and German. Thanks God I was able to speak about what my heart decided. The teacher said it was just a practice but I requested to perform it in my house so we could make another choreography and we would make it better than before. But the reality was a bitch. Why is the reality always inversely proportional with the theory? I thought that it'd be good after practicing for some times but they never wanna do it so I have no choice but to recede myself and seek a new group. If I don't do this then I'd fucking get the lowest score. No. It doesn't mean that I am not a loyal one but they should understand the circumstance. Where they are, what they suppose to do. It's not only for me but for everyone else too. I have rebuked them but they still don't wanna hear my advice. Three times I've done it. I'll never get fourth~

Early Morning

2011-10-11T21:03:00.000+07:00

" Why not one more night? One last kiss goodbye.
My sweet love tonight.
I hope the stars, still spell out your name where you are " Early Morning - Alesana

guess who deserves to get this song . . .

Your Mama Is The Best For Us

2011-10-11T20:55:00.000+07:00

OMFG SORRY FOR LACK OF POST AND NOT BEING HERE :(

NOW I AM BACK AND BRINGING YOU A CUP OF STRAWBERRY ICE CREAM :)

So days went so fabulous and now what ♥ been so addicted to Alesana's songs and I completed my iTunes with it sooooo yes :D last post wasn't that quality, I know :\ kay. Today was going gaga because one of my teachers was so friendly and I counted it as a whimsicality. I mean, she has never smiled on my class and always gave a death-glare but today she was so distinctive and because of it I think I fell in love with her change of attitude xD yeay me!

She told us that a class before my class was so cool, someone's phone rang loudly and she snatched it and saw what was happening, she caught a message from someone special in that phone. from his girlfriend. Ok this was so funny. She replied the text by mentioning many 'gombal' things. She started mentioning; Kasihku, Cintaku, Sayangku, and stuffs like that :p I laughed irregularly and almost fell from my seat. Everybody saw me. Haspft. And the teacher looked at me so I suddenly paused and started writing nothing in the back of my book. But she continued laughing and a whole class was uncontrolled. Umh. Everyone in my class should commemorate this day and give a credit to her ♥ yaaaay.

Ok so I have nothing to say more, :\ and kjash;shsg jghuf;lksius lkdodidfj;kdjushs for my new skin xD darker and skull are good ♥♥♥

PLETES in action, darl

2011-09-27T16:10:00.000+07:00

Sunday, 25^th 2011 was the day when the death spied on me. The day that should never come in my weekend's schedule.

No, I know it's impossible.

Sunday was just fabulous as I thought before but it wasn't funny as I expected. You know what? Well.
Yanuar, Yogi, Deni, Mayckel, Bayu, Fachri, Angga, and I were gonna go to Angga's house in Sumbermanjing Wetan i don't know how to translate 'wetan' so yeah and we went at 10.30AM from my house. If only I had a ruler, it'd be 22KMs away from here. We went through a place named Gedog Wetan, then Druju. Druju is a place in the valley. Horror, I know. then we passed Pletes area. It's a ravine. Almost like Ngantang, Pujon, and those horrible areas xD I just.. well, had fun there. Took some photos and recorded videos about our little treasure.

Because I never go far from my house so.

Pics I took there :D

Druju. Oh. Why do I always remember Judas while seeing this one? Mad xD

We just arrived.

Mayckel and I. He's way younger than me :P

an FBI wannabe :D

WATCHA DOIN IN MA LAPTOP GUYZ?

ssh

Yanu and I. Die Broers fur eeuwig xD

I was too cute wearing the glasses xD

M O R E T O C O M E

Done. Urgh. On the way to home I was with Yanu and we descended a Pletes area again. Pletes was the only choice for us to be home cause there wasn't any shortcut. Our mission was almost accomplished but we fell again. Approximately 20metres from Druju village. I fucking fell down and was dragged along by 5-fuckin-metres-away. REALLLLYYYYYYYYYY I FELL DOWN FOR THE THIRD TIMEEESSSSSSSSS??? The chronology was; Yanu drove it on 70kms/hour while I was recording our trip and he slipped so we fell down. Yanu got some wounds but I got a trauma. A truck almost ran over my head but suddenly there was a distance for about 3 metres. I accidentally recorded the time I fell and fainted. Yesh. Fainted. and I was appointed to the nearest house by some men. Including Mayckel. Oh you were my hero. I squealed. Trauma hit me in the head and I got my eyes so black and wound in a palm of my left hand. I didn't blame on Yanu. It's a catastrophe. Who knew before? and the videos are coming soon, darl.

Tomorrow will be my German exam and Physics and stuffs. This week goes so radical. Math Olympiad on Sunday. Wish me luuucckkk~

See you soon, love.

SAD TOUR DAY

2011-09-24T15:43:00.000+07:00

HALLO GURLS I AM BACK NOW.

WHO MISSED ME THAT MUCH? NO ONE? O KAY.

Too bad I didn't even write an entire of my day yesterday, because. Umh, you know. A mount of assignments and exams and stuffs. Yesterday I was just like a mad zombie. Srsly. Fia and Ajeng fetched me up on 6.15PM because we had an extra lesson [Physics, yes. Unpleasant] and we went on 80kms/hour. Sooner, we arrived. I got a feeling that this time would be a really tedious season. No, not because we got a night shift, the teacher. Err, yes. She explained about Vectors and asked if we had a homework or not. And she continued explaining about it like a train. Really fast. Umh, I just scribbled those unknown formulas o_o and paid an attention while sending some messages to my friends xD yay naughty!

It was suddenly 7.15PM and we had to go home and Fia decided to pick me home xDD yay. We went across the cemetery o________o ok this wasn't funny i knew. When we approached that area, my goosebumps stood up so I jumped off and Fia fell and I grabbed her hand and we left Ajeng alone and ran from that haunted place xP we shouted and shouted and shouted and..........shouted, again. Until we found a boulevard and laughed loudly.

[mad boy and both of drunk girls lol]

I posted it in facebook btw xD yay us. While talking about facebook, I kinda want to remove my gf's account. Oops, I mean my ex's. Like my previous story. But no, I didn't cry! *wiped tears*. Oh ok, she just got another boy as an alternate. HAHA. maybe. I know that boy and woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot, 1000 times worse than me like , lol. No. Who cares, btw? Revenge exists and I'd start a game about it. And yes, today was a sad tour day [read: Saturday]. No. I'm not joking. A week ago I submitted my Economic project and did a Geographic exam. Economic, at first. From 30 questions I just got 17 right. Divide it into 3 and I'd get 5,67. and Geographic, I got 70 out of 100. The three highest are; Prila (84), Ade (82), and Fifa (82). The others get a remidial. WHAT? REMIDIAL? U KIDDING MEH? Those scores that I got really embarrassed me. My reputation was being brought down ;___; and I sobbed.

Tomorrow will be a blast day ♥ gonna go to Angga's residence in Sumbermanjing, through Pletes area [a ravine, i mean].

See you tomorrow darl,
bObz ♥

Birthday Party

2011-09-20T18:03:00.000+07:00

SO SORRY FOR

LACK OF BLOGGING THESE WEEKS.

how many weeks haven't i been online? two weeks? sorry.

last time i was online was September, 3^rd and during those days i didn't put my ass here.

whoa.
you just missed everything about me.

no, not at all. at least i still updated my Twitter and Facebook.

from the time i got twice accidents, till my birthday party last Saturday. felt so broken when i discovered myself all in red.

no, not that over. i just ended my relationship.

umh, i am so confused. where should i start my preach? because really. there are lots of thing happened in my life. o ok.

September 6^th was a catastrophe for me because i had twice accidents in a row. i was knocked down by a truck-trailers and almost died because of squashed. i wrote a recount text about it because it's an assignment so it seems that i don't have to tell you more. trauma? i still have ones.

this Lebaran should really be named " Lebaran and d00d " as my recount title.

on September, 17^th was my fifteen birthday. some of my mates came to my house [ i did an open house for sure ] and took many photos. here are the ones i can attach;

happy birthday darling

blurred

BOBBAY = Bobby Bayu. Best Friend Ever After.

Yogi && Mayckel. honorable friends <3

Open House!!!

eating avidly :3

Yogi && Me.

Yanu && Me, you ate it greedily o_O

reflection of nothing. gonna edit it soon xD

umh not that cute :\

so there are some of photos i could enclose here, more of it, can you see here.
ok, today i skipped my OSIS test just for registering my extra-lessons or minor. idk if i won't pass it but yes. outbound doesn't sound funny because i still have a wound in my left right that's still muddy, yuck! and thank you to Mr. Bambang who gave me the best accredited in speaking English just now!! i'm not a fluent one but this was sooooo radical <3

mmhkay, Oktober 2^nd will be my Mathematical Olympiad. whoa.
that ain't even a funny phrase i know. deadly phrase. bring a good name of school. if you win, it'd be a surprise and you'd get a glory. if you lose, then that's a problem. what i am afraid is about my low exactitude. and a problem again;
it's all about my score-reduction [ oh what? Seduction? Alesana? HOLYYYYYSHIT. oh ok nevermind ] which will affect my repute as a ------clever student. mmh no, but some teachers said so.

what will be scarier than it?

that i would never be able to join the Acceleration class anymore! my chance would be vain and i'd be kicked out o well not that bad hehe xD

BUT RLY I WANT TO JOIN THAT MAJESTIC CLASS! urgh so i've to study even harder than before. that would mean i am going on my hiatus again. what? again? it's all for my future i think.

that's enough, babydoll.
see you soon!
*tightens the fingers*

F i f t e e n

2011-09-17T21:27:00.000+07:00

hello my
f i f t e e n

and goodbye
f o u r t e e n

thank you for bringing your
amazing days, amazing loves,
amazing moments, amazing friends,
amazing experiences, amazing musics,
amazing knowledges, amazing attentions,
and all 'that' amazing things i couldn't mention here
because it's overloaded.

hope still abides

it's almost 2012 now
and i know i've done none of things in my 14
and today, Sept 17^th 2011 the day that 15 years ago
i was born.

that day i smelt the world by my small nostrils,
i touched the earth by my skin-membrane,
i saw the lights by my puny eyes,

and today i should muse about what things i've
accomplished, i should thank to God because he saved my life
from the three-deathly-accidents,
so far i counted i got three accidents and i should be dead at the moment but harshss.

" bid my blood to run before i come undone, save me
from the nothing i've become, bring me to life. " Bring Me To Life - Evanescence

thankyou for accruing my age
i am fifteen now and i am a happiest teen.
this birthday may seem so different from 7 years ago
where we used to play Hide 'n Seek when i chased you down
and we laughed together.
darling, once again, i am fifteen now.

this September i should prove that i am an appropriate teen.
we'll watch.

-Bobz.

Counting

2011-09-01T09:23:00.001+07:00

h i a t u s , z z :o
be back here sooner, i promise.

sorry for not being here for a long time,

1 6 - d a y s - a h e a d
that will be different

i should write more i know,
but my family comes and i can't even touch my laptop so ya
by the way, Minal Aidzin wal Faidzin and Minal Minul to all my (loyal) reader(s)
[do i even have a reader?]
see you soon cupcakes x

Buber Bareng Bohaii (3B haha xD)

2011-08-25T23:17:00.000+07:00

HUAAA hari ini habis buber bareng Bohaii alias mantan kelas saya dulu, tet tet tett~

" 9 - H - S O N G O - H A H - B O H A I I - C O M M U N I T Y "

Dateng jam 5an gitu deh, of course bawa laptop, HP, headset, trus kan jalan gitu dari rumah RAWR ngga ada yang mau jemput :c trus sampe sana saya langsung disodori kameranya Talitha zz trus foto-foto :D banyak juga seh foto-fotonya, trus disuruh beli aqua sekardus zz mana mahal banget sih 20 ribu biasanya kan 12 ribu -___- eh tapi nggak apa deh kan uangnya Talitha :D trus buber gitu deh, namanya aja Buka Bersama. Sama es buah trus ayam bakar xD minumnya aqua gitu. Urunan 15 ribu masing-masing >:D ada sholat maghrib berjamaah juga DAN bodohnya aku pake jeans 3/4 zz mana ga ada sarung yaudah deh. Pasrah. Eh tapi ada beberapa juga sih :D ada Hario, Ian, sama Ari yang ga sholat xD tapi acaranya sebentar banget :c but i really had fun :) kapan ya bisa kaya gini lagi zz ohya aku lupa ngerekam video -_- damn.

anyway i did some screencap;

additional;

Bubernya Bohaii :D :* :) xD :| :3
taken by : kameranya Talitha
place : SMPN 1 Turen
when? : pastinya pas jam buber zz sampe jam 7:34:43 (kalo aku sih, lainnya gatau zz)

Ini Ceritaku, mana Deritamu? :D

2011-08-24T09:54:00.000+07:00

" Aku menutup mataku dan melihat sekawanan burung. Pandangan itu berlangsung sedetik, atau kurang; aku tidak yakin berapa banyak burung yang aku lihat. Apakah jumlah burung terbatas atau tak terbatas? Persoalan tersebut melibatkan keberadaan Tuhan. Jika Tuhan ada, jumlah itu terbatas, karena Tuhan mengetahui berapa banyak burung yang aku lihat. Jika Tuhan tak ada, jumlah itu tak terbatas, karena tak seorangpun dapat menghitungnya. Dalam kasus ini aku melihat lebih sedikit dari sepuluh burung (biarkan aku katakan) dan lebih dari satu, tetapi tidak melihat sembilan, delapan, tujuh, enam, lima, empat, tiga atau dua burung. Aku melihat bilangan antara sepuluh dan satu, yang bukan sembilan, delapan, tujuh, enam, lima, dan seterusnya. Bilangan bulat itu – bukan sembilan, bukan delapan, bukan tujuh, bukan enam, bukan lima, dan seterusnya – tak dapat digambarkan. Ergo, Tuhan itu ada. " - Jorge Luis Borge (The Aleph - 1998)

so today is Jorge's 112^th birthday :) know nothing about him but I kinda love some of his novels (yes, internet is helpful)

Ehm, jadi kemarin saya main ke rumah Mayckel di Sidorejo yang ±7km, kan rencana awal mau ke rumahku tapi aku bilang; " Masa ke rumahku lagi? Gantian gitu lho :D ayo Mayc, aku kan belum pernah ke rumahmu. Zz ayo rek budal nang omahe Mayc " dan mereka setuju.

Yaudah kita berangkat. Zz jalanannya bok, berbatu dan aku bolak-balik mau jatuh ._. dayyum. Eh tapi seru, suasananya masih desa banget, banyak debu, truk, dan benda-benda lainnya xD Aku langsung bisa ngerekam dokumentasi pake HP nya Mayc, yes another ngga bondo thing tapi ya as always, nggak ada suaranya pas di play di laptop. Yaudah. pasrah, but I uploaded some photos :] cek aja di dinding saya di facebook. You'll get it. Trus hari ini saya libur, masuk tanggal 8 dan kenapa pas hari Kamis o_o Halal Bihalal gitu deh, tapi akhir-akhirnya ya juga pelajaran, zz. Semoga hari ini aku dijemput trus main kemanaaa gitu. Aku bosen di rumah. Mengering secara dramatis. Ohya aku belom mandi lho :D

Mungkin itu, stay golden, cupcakes.

Seduction

2011-08-21T07:11:00.000+07:00

" Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone!
Why have you turned your back on me?
One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake " Seduction - Alesana ♥

Damn. Addicted to this song. Tiap harii sekarang muter lagu ini and Yanuar and I sang this song out yesterday xDD Ketinggalan jaman banget ya :D Padahal lagu ini udah lamaaa banget dan baru sekarang aku menyukainya xD Hari ini Minggu. Kemaren aku tidur cuman beberapa jam, watched " Get Smart " in RCTI and felt so happy i could watch this movie. Ceritanya keren gitu, membasmi para teroris Rusia and penghianatan and made love and romantic. Pake bahasa Rusia gitu zz tapi nggak semua *YAY* tapi keren juga ya bahasa Rusia itu o_o yaa gitu deh. Awalnya planning mau liat Twilight. Tapi kayanya udah kelewat AND EMANG BENER AKJKASJSSWSNJWHS

BOX OFFICE MOVIE TWILIGHT

JUMAT, 19 AGUSTUS

22.30 WIB

AND WHAT DATE IS TODAY? AUGUST, 21^st ? OH. Tapi pas aku baca deskripsinya kayanya itu yg Saga :\ udah pernah liat sih TAPI KAN MAU LAGI :c and due to my awful brain for memorizing something, i missed this part. Trus katanya Breaking Dawn mau dirilis bulan November ya? :D ah, I could illegally copy the others xD Temenku udah ada yang punya DVD nya :D life's always been good :3

anyway I've got to go now :| my friends are coming in an hour more. So they're gonna copy my assignments uh fuck but okay :D

see you
with the glitter, xo.

Express Update

2011-08-19T19:34:00.001+07:00

SO IT SHOULD BE WRITTEN A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO!!!
Damn self. HUAH. Terlalu sibuk juga sih, nyiapin buat ulangan kimia yang mematikan itu, belum lagi PR pada numpuk zz kapan ada waktu buat blogging kalo gini caranya -_-

Selasa, 16 Agustus 2011.
Banyak kejadian hari itu HAHAH termasuk nangis di sekolah. Yes. I'm a typical like Mushy. Huah sekarang saya jadi lembek layaknya Super Bubur :9 yumm. Trus pelajaran PKn. like whoa. Sekelas pada dieem gitu and the only one that left is just a whisper from the wind~. Trus Bahasa Inggris. Aku dicolek-colek mulu sama anak-anak -____- zz jijik tau. Mana ngeliatinnya kea gimanaaaa gitu. Kea mau nagih utang. YEAH. A LOAN SHARK. Habis itu pas pulang sekolahnya itu kan as usual gitu aku pulang jalan. Dududu sambil nyanyi You and I nya Lady Gaga gituuuu.... DAMN THAT ROCKS! Habis itu diajakin pulang bareng sama Irfan. Hh, tipikal anak lol sedunia yang kerjaannya di kelas itu muter-muter kea kitiran HAHAHA. Dibonceng anak 2 sama Eka juga. Hh, gak dapet tempat alhasil aku minta turun di kost-kostannya temennku :D nunggu tebengan lain gitu HAHAHAH. Taunya ada Masrofi. YEAAYYY. Tapi dia ngerem mendadak gitu jadi yang belakang pada berhenti semua o_o haha horror. Planning awal mau pulang sih, tapi gara-gara anak-anak pada mau main jadii ya IKUT :D ah senangnya. Rumahnya di Sanan Wetan. Agak jauh juga sih haha BUT I RECORDED OUR JOURNEY :D && TOOK SOME PHOTOS JUGAAA! Pas dibonceng kecepatan 100km/hour gitu aku ngerekam perjalanan haha bayangkan kawan-kawan -___-. Trus pas udah nyampe kita sharing gitu dan anak-anak pada bahas motor semua -_- uh i didn't even understand even just ..a line. Whoa. Parah ya. Trus copy-copy lagu gitu kan aku bawa laptop :D Trus pulangnya bareng Deni. Wow. Ngebut bangetz bok eykke kan takyuutt *PLAK*. Nyampe rumah jam 3an kalo gasalah. Langsung online Facebook :D

anyway it's the album; s e p u l u h - d h e - i n - a c t i o n .
taken in anywhere and by Michael's phone :3

Rabu, 17 Agustus 2011.
Aah, go see my previous post :) You won't ask me to write it once again, will you? -_-
tapi ada satu lagi yang kelupaan :'D

from Indonesia with love ♥

taken by : MYSELF YAY :D oh.
taken with : Nokia 3110C

Soo it's been good too long ♥

Kamis, 18 Agustus 2011.
This day went so RAD. Capital R and written in uppercase. No plan for going to somewhere so I just stayed at home. Made poems :D at night I cried myself to sleep :( damn, I still love you and I can't disown it ♥ I wish you read this xD Trus yaudah deh, seharian sedih terus :( I thought I would lose you :( Tapi enggak kan xDD trus aku kirim SMS sampe 6 lembar ke dia dengan subyek mau minta maaf. Ah, happiness come in one pack ♥ senengnya sampe sekarang. Sampe aku nulis blog ini. Trus lagunya Alesana - Seduction yang menggelora :3 ditambah You and I - Lady Gaga. Oh my damnn keren banget videonya. Ada mermaid and pale girl and classique piano and Nebraska guy IS SO HOT!! Can't deny it xD

kay, there are lots of work I gotta do.
stay rad, with glitter and kisses, xo.

Endless Story

2011-08-18T19:38:00.000+07:00

i've been living
this unidentified world alone
trying to
get you out of my life
but after all this time
i can't help myself but miss you
but you're cryptic now
and i, i wish i couldn't weep
because these tears are vain

you were once
a dream that came true,
an illusion that became real
but abruptly,
things turned differently.
i set up
a graveyard
and write in the tombstone about
our way.

[that should be written as 'forever dying']

the way we used to be,
isn't the same aswe first met
till the time i
have no choice but to let you go.

i wish i could be
woken up by jumping off a cliff.

you're the reason for
my sleepless nights
cause you
keep stayin' on my mind
i can't help myself
from crying
cause i'm missing you so much.

[i don't even understand why i wrote this bullshit]

Paginya aku nulis Puisi menyeramkan kaya gini, trus aku post di FB. Malemnya aku langsung kegirangan 'cause I'd never ever lose you xD damnyo!
anyway, i'd make a lot of poems since i get so much idea.
written in Indonesian and English :)

Glitter in Independence Day

2011-08-17T13:29:00.003+07:00

zz Lapangan Kahuripan is in the front of your eyes. dusty. windy.

taken by Michael's phone, Nokia C3.

So today is August, 17^th 2011 which means it's an Indonesian Independence Day :D whoop!
And of course. Me and some ~~'lol3rs'~~ of my friends have to attend the ceremony which will be held in Lapangan Kahuripan. Yeww. A bit far from my residence so I'll be fetched up :D Ah, life is good.

And yes. I never forget to enclose photos && videos && everything I see. so it's the album photo and I won't upload my videos 'cause it takes too much capacity [yes, it's fkn' more than 80MB] :D aah the flag ceremony ran so flawless. there were some people fainted and there were 4 ambulances and PMR teams who were always standby. I stood on the right line and was adjacent to Widya Dharma's line :| felt so weird because the Danton of the line was even smaller than me. I meant, she's high as my shoulder :D yay.

Kay, enough for the rants. Not in the mood to update any status on Facebook. Basically, you logged in and jengjengjeng, you'd see your EX online and COMMENTED ON YOUR STATUS and it's not even once, but 98982662637819293635 times. And s/he updated a status for like they're so fucking better.
OOHH. NIGHTMARE WILL HAUNT YOU IN YOUR BLOODY ROOM WHEN THERE'S NO OXYGEN LEFT AND YOU'RE BREATHLESS AND YOUR LUNGS BURNED OUT AND YOU'RE FUCKING DYING. Mmh well, I ain't exaggerating myself but yes :D Me is currently leaving Twitter and getting back in Facebook :D

" haha, but alluding everyone is so much fun \m/ " - My Friend.

Oh and I got a pile of assignments and presentations and exams and the others shitty things. HMMM those are amusing. anyway guys, sorry for being on a hiatus :D

Btw, by saying Hiatus. I'm so intrigued about that phrase. I looked it up on Urban Dictionary and got this one;

" A gap or interruption in time, or continuity; a break. "

OOH so that would mean, "on vacuum" :D ah, me is so tacky. OH OH I FORGOT TO WATCH " Yoü And I "

happiness in one pack.

see ya later.xo

Nebraska Guy

2011-08-13T23:46:00.002+07:00

photo of us where we used to fall in love each other.

It’s been a long time since I came around,
been a long time but I’m back in town,
and this time I’m not leaving without you :)

You taste like whiskey when you kiss me, oooh
I’ll give anything again to be your baby doll,
this time I’m not leaving without you.

He said; " Sit back down where you belong,
in the corner of my heart with your high heels on!
Sit back down on the couch where we
made love for first time and you said to me;

something, something about this place,
something 'bout lonely nights and my lipstick on your face,
something, something about my cool Nebraska guy,
yeah something about, baby yoü and I. "

It's been two years since I let you go,
I couldn’t listen to a joke or rock 'n roll,
muscle cars drove a truck right through my heart.

On my birthday you sing me a heart of gold,
with a guitar humming and no clothes,
This time I'm not leaving without you
Ooh-oh ooh-oh.

" Sit back down where you belong,
in the corner of my heart with your high heels on.
Sit back down on the couch where we
made love for first time and you said to me "

Something, something about this place
Something 'bout lonely nights and my lipstick on your face
Something, something about my cool Nebraska guy
Yeah something about, baby yoü and I.

Yoü and I.
You, yoü and I.
You, yoü and I.
You, yoü and I.
Yoü and I
You, yoü and I
Oh yeah! I'd rather die
Without yoü and I

C’mon!
Put your drinks up!

We got a whole lot of money, but we still pay rent.
'cause you can’t buy a house in Heaven,
there’s only three men that I'mma serve my whole life.
It’s my daddy and Nebraska and Jesus Christ.

Something, something about the chase, six whole years.
I'm a New York woman, born to run you down,
so have my lipstick all over your face,
something, something about just knowing when it's right!

So put your drinks up, for Nebraska
For Nebraska, Nebraska, I love you.

Yoü and I
You, yoü and I
Baby! I rather die!
Without yoü and I

Yoü and I
You, yoü and I
Nebraska! I rather die
Without yoü and I

It’s been a long time since I came around,
Been a long time but I’m back in town,
and this time I’m not leaving without you.

Yoü and I - Lady GaGa

Sedih denger lagu ini. Serasa flashback ke bulan Januari 2011. Sedih banget.
The thing that matters, is you're not mine anymore. and I still can't get over that fact. Mungkin udah terlalu sayang kali ya ;__; oh i wish you read this blog. Hm, mungkin aja dia udah bahagia sama yang lain. Good bye 29122010, wish we could meet again. I love you.

Aku harus sabar :')

Harapan Lebaran

2011-08-06T12:40:00.000+07:00

Aku punya satu harapan yang agak konyol -_- kalian tau apa?

HP BARU.

Nokia X2-00 yang sangat Classy dan Sexy :3

Ada beberapa hal juga yang bikin aku tertarik sama HP ini (alias fitur-fiturnya bok ohmyhot) dan inilah dia;
♥ Candybar Type
♥ Screen Type: 240 x 320 pixels, 2.2 inch, TFT, and 256K colour
♥ Numeric Keypad dan gede-gede :D
♥ 5MP Camera WOOT WOOT INI YANG SAYA CARI :D
♥ harganya murah, sekitar 900 ribu sampai sejuta :D jarang ada kan hp yg kea gini xD
♥ Dedicated Music Keys on the left part.
♥ dan masih banyak lagi, tapi aku males nulisnya :D you have to see more.

Dan kendalanya ya seperti biasa, uangnya yang ga ada -_- bahkan HP ku yang ini aja kalo dijual cuman dapet 350 ribu (dan itu sangat mekso) pfft wtf. Semoga aja lebaran uangnya cukup and I can buy this one ♥ kan lebaran keluarga ngumpul :D at least I can ask for my dad to equip the money :] kalo ngga bisa beli sekarang yaaa it's ok :) pokoknya sebelum tahun baru aku harus udah punya YEAAAHHH nabung nabung :3 kalo bisa juga sebelum my birthday comes xD

Ohya, liburan awal puasa ini lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa banget, dari tanggal berapa ya aku lupa sampe masuk tanggal 9 dan itu pula Pondok Ramadhan :3 yes, another rare event. Trus tanggal 11-23 KBM seperti biasa dan pas masuk aku langsung ulangan o.o ohya tugasku numpuk kea Mount Everest. Belom tugas ini itu omg banyaaaaaak. And so, aku ngerjain tugas dulu ya ]:D aku harus niat biar bisa masuk IPA!!

See ya!

and i hate to see a pile of ASSignments apart in my room. wooz.

So Long and Good Night

2011-08-04T16:06:00.000+07:00

photos from: weheartit

i wish we were
still together just as
we used to be.
but that seems so
impossible.
this is all my fault
i used to say
'I would forget you and forever I would be amnesia about you!'
but nowadays,
even in a second,
you're still on my mind
and i have no idea what to do right now.

come back to me,
even in my dream
because i can't....
dream without you.

Silver Weeks

2011-07-15T14:05:00.001+07:00

judul: PRA-MOPDB - 9/07/2011
properti: buku tulis.

Jadi hari pertama itu garing banget kea kripik Lays, gurih juga deng :P Aku masuk kelas KUTA. kelas ke-8 dari 10 kelas buat MOPDB-nya. wahaaaa seru, anaknya ya awalnya pada J-A-I-M gitude tapi lama-lama we could understand each other :) Korlas nya Kak Shufi && Kak Nana. Korlas paling heboh dewe -_- tapi gapapa kaaaan~ untuk menceriakan organisasi yang suram ini :] and yay.
Trus diberitahu properti yg harus dibawa dan dipake buat hari Senin - Rabu. k-kinda c-crazy. I meant, they wanted us to bring 'Besek' covered with a black marble paper, tas jinjing yg dipake ibu-ibu ke pasar itu, pita hitam lebar 3 cm, Lencana permen Kopiko 3 buah and those awkward stuffs o_o well, lebih parah daripada orang gila. OMG i wish could skip these days. hari pertama yaudah deh berlalu gitu aja ahaha.

judul: First-Second-Third Days of MOPDB - 11-13 July 2011
properti: bahan yang dipakai untuk MOS, plus tanaman Lidah Buaya dan kuas, Slayer Bunga.

-first day
So, hari pertama MOPDB itu 'sucks' beneran deh, tatibnya jahat banget but disiplin banget :D ngapain juga saya takut kalo saya enggak salah ahaha :D udah agak lupa o_o di sekolah lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa banget dan saya bosen :c pengen pulang aja. mana lupa ga bawa HP so i couldn't enclose the photos, untungnya sih aku sempet foto-foto properti yang bakal dipamerkan pas MOPDB :D yaaayy~

id-card saya dan pita lebar 3cm.

tas jinjing with black ribbon pffttt

properties of nothing

besek and a pack of castol glue.

kalo kita pelanggaran, coklatnya dikasikan ke tatib ...... hfft

what i brought for 3 days.

-second day
WHOOPE duta kelas udah dipilih AND IT WAS NOT ME. nyesek banget o.o tapi nggak apa deh jadi rakyat kecil hwehehe :D saya duduk sendirian di depan. suka ketawa ngakak pas korlas njelasin and acting like it's her birthday *lhoh kok malah nyanyi*. trus kita disuruh minta tandatangan kakak-kakak osis dan ya o_o horror.

because all we need was your guys signatures.

mana kalo mau minta tanda tangan kita harus kasih password or do whatever they wanted. waaaaa pernah yang disuruh ngulang password sampe 3 kali hahah FML. tapi hari ini mengesankan juga :D saya disuruh maju buat nyanyi Hymne SMA dan Mars nya Miepra, OMG saya kan nggak bisa nyanyi o_o untungnya nggak sendirian but berbanyak-banyak anak xD hwahahah

-third day
awalnya apa ya aku lupa -_- pokoknya kepilih ikut Paski, trus... OMG OUTBOUND. menggunakan sarung, slayer, dan kerdus. sarung saya diinjak-injak dan mati mengenaskan o^o slayer dibuat kayak nutup mata gitu trus kita sepur-sepuran dan gak boleh nabrak, kerdusnya diinjek-injek gitu :D waah this is called a freedom, trus main jauh-jauhan, jadi kita harus mengorbankan benda-benda yang bisa direntangkan trus kita gandengan gitu deh ahahah ngerti nggak? nggak. WAAAA SERU BANGET THE THIRD DAY NYAAA :D omg you wouldn't regret xD hari paling capek dan saya terpilih menjadi

Peserta MOPDB Terbaik nomer 8 tahun ajaran 2011-2012

HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA RASANYA KAYA TERBANG KE BLACK HOLE DI LUAR ANGKASAAAAA :DD
omg guys seneng banget, eh padahal aku nggak ngapa-ngapain lho tiba-tiba dapet gitu aja huahuhaaaaa :D here are photos;

isinya buku :D it has lots of meaning <3

typo, my name has double B between O and Y, but gapapa :P

DAG-DIG-DUG-SERRR DAG-DIG-DUG-SERRR ~~

so there was me smiling 'mekso' and menghitam dengan brutal :P

so this may be enough~ mohon undur diri, wassalamualaikum :D ~~*dungaren rek salam haha edisi ramadhan*~~

stay tuned to my next post~!

New Adventure

2011-07-08T09:04:00.000+07:00

So yeah, sekarang tanggal 8 Juli 2011 and guess what. Besok saya masuk sekolah xD seneng sih, ada rasa takut juga. Pokoknya bingung deh. Pasalnya, besok disuruh masuk jam 6.30 dan di lapangan deket sekolah o.o you know what it means? Dijereng di Lapangan berjam-jam. OMG HELL NO.

I have anemic & hypotension, so this wouldn't be good o.o kalau cuman setengah jam aja, it's ok. Tapi berjam-jam? I would faint or throw up. Nggak lucu kan? Semoga besok cuacanya dingin :D kaya hari ini. SUPER COLD. felt like living in Germany. Gara-gara liburan ini juga, jadi bangun tidur pagi susaaaaaah banget padahal tidur jam 10 malem. Nggak terlalu malem juga kan. Efek dingin ini jadi males bangun deh ~_~ mana kalo habis mandi sering menggigil lagi, kaya orang kena drugs, HAHA. Woops, say no to drugs, :] nggak baik buat kesehatan, hahah.

Ohya kemarin aku jalan-jalan. Daripada mematung di rumah. Bayangkan aja, habis UNAS kan tanggal 28 April kan, libuuuurrrr sampai sekarang dan random. sesek. Dan nggak kemana-mana. Nyesek. Ke MTD sih, tapi cuman itu ._. yeah, my life is wearisome. and a couple of days ago I took some ~~bad~~ photos of me :] enjoy;

aku juga nggak tau ini apa.

daripada bosen mending foto-foto di warung Rujak Cingur :p sekalian pesen hehe.

choose which is more ~~handsome~~ cool :3

Terus kan ke rumah nenek saya, beliau habis pulang Umroh, dapet jajan :3

chocolates, lays, magnums, imitation sequins, rhinestone, date palms, a couple of pendant, candies, salty nuts, Zam-Zam, shampoo, bath foam, myself.

done :3 i went to KFC.

colonel bento, french fries, fresteas, double crispy fried chickens, a couple of colonel sundae, double pack of rice.

sooner, i visited Gramedia, bought some books.

discount up to 15% ♥ and both are so useful for me.

french lesson and colonel bento.

me. tried to play E.T. by Katy Perry and so bad.

yes, semoga saya sukses besok :3 stay tuned, le Bobz.

a Happy Birthday card

2011-07-07T20:05:00.004+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYNYSTER GATES,

you are one of my favorite guitarists xD

wish you be the best in every path you make, wish you be healthy, and many more wishes to you :)
It's been 3 years since I've been idolizing you, and your band, of course. you're the best guitarist I ever saw xDD
You play melodies beautifully.

THERE'S ME :D

LOL :p found on Tumblr ♥ WAT A ROMANTIC

why are you staring at me? :D

*faint*

................................................................

"Boom I got yo boyfriend!!! I got yo man!!! And she was so sad and I laughed so hard"
- Synyster Gates

Firework

2011-07-05T09:33:00.004+07:00

it's already the fifth day of July and yes, I'm late.
But in America, right now it's still July, 4^th and I still get a chance to blog :)

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMERICA, LET'S GET PARTIES & FIREWORKS & BEERS & GLORY"

-July, 4^th 1776 - Present. Forever always be.

And yes, once again. Happy Birthday America!
My future country, ♥. well, I always crave to be there, start a new life.
making friends, improving my English skill, be an American Boy.
and yes, it should be real. makanya mulai sekarang aku udah mulai nabung looh buat hidup di Amerika, nggak tau harus nunggu berapa taun biar bisa cukup tapi katanya biaya hidup disana 'mahal' and I have to seek a job. Entah jadi guru Bahasa Indonesia, atau apalah xD yes, Indonesian isn't necessary there c':

On July 4, 1776, we claimed our independence from Britain and Democracy was born. Every day thousands leave their homeland to come to the "land of the free and the home of the brave" so they can begin their American Dream.

The United States is truly a diverse nation made up of dynamic people. Each year on July 4, Americans celebrate that freedom and independence with barbecues, picnics, and family gatherings. Through the Internet we are learning about and communicating with people of different nations, with different languages and different races throughout the world. Bringing the world closer with understanding and knowledge can only benefit all nations.

We invite all nations to celebrate with Americans online this Fourth of July.

Happy Birthday, America!
source : here

Dan, oh ya I sorta out what songs I should listen to, today;
♥ Firework - Katy Perry. THIS IS A MUST, yes.
♥ Hair - Lady Gaga.
♥ Party in USA - Miley Cirus.
♥ Hot 'n Cold - Katy Perry.
♥ Party Rock Anthem - LMFAO.
♥ American Boy - Estelle ft Kanye West.
♥ My Humps - Black Eyed Peas.
♥ Just Dance - Lady Gaga.
♥ What The Hell - Avril Lavigne.
♥ Telephone - Lady Gaga ft Beyonce.

Damn yo xDD

“I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, and to the Republic for which it stands. One nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.”

&& i have no idea to write more.
love, le bObz

Building The Wreckage of Dreams

2011-07-04T09:31:00.000+07:00

yes, I'll fly as free as a bunch of birds.
spreading my wings like there are nothing needs to be worried.
I'll fly as high as a Rocket to the moon.
chasing down all of my postponed dreams,
though I know
I can't reach it..

even my dreams are all too high to be achieved,
there is no 'surrender' word written in my system.

I'm gonna fly..
I'm gonna fly............

source: weheartit

Masterchef Indonesia

2011-07-03T21:11:00.005+07:00

today, Albie was eliminated from Masterchef Indonesia && as you know, after an hour crying && whining && cursing for what i saw today, i started blogging here. shedding my words && thoughts && tears, maybe. [anyone else wants to taste my tears? kinda salty.]
then i still have an unanswered question in my system; WHY CAN THIS BE HAPPENED? I MEANT, THE CUISINES HE MADE, WERE ALMOST FLAWLESS.

i saw his persistence to maintain his position. to still be the one who will be the winner in the end of the story. i don't know if his last cuisine wasn't that delicious but it looked so perfect o.o idk.

but your struggles aren't vain, Bro.
and you've proved to your childs, especially.
you've shown the world that you could be.
and whatever the result you got, you could still make everyone proud of you.
don't be sad.
don't be sad because "Home is where the heart is".
you've tons of love or maybe infinity. to be given to your childs.

and ps :: YOU'RE A SUPERDAD :DD

Albie with his motorcycle. Pengen punya motornyaa *_* /plak

Albie with Chef Master Marinka

and yes, he is there.

Albie with Chef Master Juna.

oh oh and i found some links!
⇨ Albie.
⇨ Chef Master Juna.
⇨ Priscil.
⇨ Fero.

Lainnya aku belum nemu ._. kalo aku udah nemu nanti aku update lagi ya :D

best friends never die young.

Stay tuned, Le boBz.

Photos from: Facebook
a click to higher result, yes.

Synthetic Dream

2011-07-02T13:05:00.002+07:00

i. you're the best thing I never had.

like the moon that never touches the sun and the distance that keeps far apart.
like a falling stellar in my eyes, which never grants me an endless dream.
assume me as the moon, and you are the star and I could only stare from afar wish you a million prayers

ii. I'll look after you from the void that exists beyond any celestial body.

so the ambience wouldn't be wearisome and we would keep running through the stars.
and the sun would brighten us.
and the air that's empty would kill us.
we keep pretending that those satellites wouldn't spy us so we couldn't be captured.

iii. Predominant of a plasma of hydrogen and helium would invent our own Sun.

if you want, we could build our outer space, where the oxygen is acquitted.
no friction is required.
stars, planets and moons could move freely along their ideal orbits.
and we could see a flawless scenery there.

iv. No clear boundary, No Gravity, No Black Hole, we're as free as Solar Wind.

dear, your love is magnetizing.
hypnotizing all of the nerves of my body.
I would prove my love to the Solar, the emperor of all this shit.
I would shoot the moon and taste the meteor.

v. Your system is paralyzed, atoms are colliding, and you're dead.

My love, your bright auroras strongly heat the ionosphere.
causing its plasma to expand into the magnetosphere.
the flame is beaming, irradiating all your system and I could not hold it back.
your body is sparkling and your atoms are detonating and this is a heartbreaking farewell of us.
may you rest in peace as a free stellar.
" you're always my stellar, and forever will be. ✞"

aww guys sorry for the bullshit and messier words :) i was just inspired from the E.T - Katy Perry video. damn awesome xD

✍ This is handmade

When Your Lips Are Blue

2011-07-02T00:24:00.051+07:00

HOAAAAHHHH MALEEES MAU TIDUUUURRRRR *gulung-gulung*,

INSOMNIA HITS MEEEEE. in da ass.

Kamu sudah berada sekitar 1 tahun di sekolah barumu dan kamu hanya mengatakan beberapa patah kata saja kepada ~~artis~~ teman sekolahmu yang notabene sangat gaul dan trendy. [look at myself, i am so tacky and dusty.] OMG that sucks, literally.. Anak yg satu ini agak sombong, but I bet that he's kind inside. Sakjane baik tapi dia nggak pernah nyapa, well aku udah pernah nyapa sih, kan tujuanku biar bisa ~~populer~~ banyak temen di sekolah c: tapi apa. kacang.

Trus kan ya tiba-tiba dia chat tadi malem, HUAAAAAHHH pengen meledak sampe hancur rasanya. Mau bales apa juga bingung jadi ya udah deh ngomongnya ngelantur gitu, here is the captured part;

and he didn't reply me anymore.

TAPI KAN YANG PENTING AKU DIANGGEP. setidaknya. and I adore him xD bukan apa ya tapi dia itu keren dan 'Gue suka gaya Loe!' oh ya dan kamu tau nggak jam berapa sekarang? 0:45AM. FUCK YES I AM STILL UP. Cuman gara-gara ngedit skin blog ini, jadi backgroundnya warnanya item gitu hihi unyu kaaaaan dan cursornya ganti xDD [i know i am not so good at editing css]. Yes, dan malem itu, mantan kamu yang notabene udah berbulan ngga kamu ajak ngobrol, NGECHAT. like a boss. nyesek tingkat dewa. Bayangin aja, masa kamu udah mau mengubur dalam-dalam masalah itu dan DUAAAARRRRRR tiba-tiba ia datang dari bawah tanah, haassh. Rants. Mana si mantan itu ngechatnya juga nggak nyante, mau offline juga ngga enak kan.
oh please, you're past and i have my future lover.
iya kalo cuman sebatas 'Hello' atau apalah lah ini -__________- oh well tonight is screwed up.

&& ERAGON IN RCTI. omg awalnya iseng sih nyetel TV taunya ada Film ini xD mau ditinggal tidur juga eman tapi mata ini O__O udah sepet. ah whatever, hari ini juga DINGIN kea tai. mau kemana-mana juga males kan, *loh Bobz kamu mau kemana? bukankah kamu hanya akan duduk memandangi layar laptop?* oh well, i am here for it.

hari ini juga mandangin kalender mulu, kea orang gak punya gawe. wat. udah tanggal 2 Juli 2011. bayangin ajaaaaa, prasaan baru kemarin aku ngrayain tahun baru sama Transformer && Chitato && Chicken Nugget && some more. trus baru kemarin aku Try Out dan tiba-tiba UNAS aja udah selesai --" with a really bad result. bukannya nggak bersyukur atau apa tapi ini kayanya karma deh ya -____________- ngomong-ngomong soal UNAS, aku baru sadar kalo liburan suram ini bakalan berakhir ._. tanggal 9 aja udah masuk, PRA-Mos. Tanggal 11 baru MOS beneran. iiihhhh apaan sih -___-

Huh, yaudah deh udah agak ngantuk juga, but I sorted out what to do;
♥ Making New Friends. *yaaaayy this one should be success*
♥ Taking Photos.
♥ Do More Blogging.
♥ Less Tweeting.
♥ Jalan. Hang Out With Besties.
♥ Aktif nge-Gym, kan udah SMA.
♥ WINDOW SHOPPING dihentikan, eh tapi gapapa deng :3
♥ More Active in Plurk, DeviantART, Yahoo! Messenger, and the dusty others.

Yeah. This One should be the end. Good Night, fellas ♥

Idiot

2011-06-30T19:42:00.003+07:00

who is this idiot? i don't know who is he :p

enough for the bullshit, Oke saya tau sangat random dan garing but this is my first GIF i made. aslinya udah pernah sih bikin GIF gitudeh tapi GAGAL [capital G, italic-style] and yes, i know i'm bad at editing photos.

Hello

2011-06-27T20:12:00.001+07:00

He said Hi to me!!!

what a surprise!!!

But yes. What is this xDDDD a vogue artist from Ireland said hi to a Zombie like me xD you guys cannot imagine how happy I am! Well, he said that he's online in Facebook [he wrote it in Twitter, yes] so I hurriedly logged in and I started the conversation and he replied me! It's such an unexpected thing :o But he didn't say anymore :'( maybe he had many popped-up chats xD or so on, but he's still online now!

Asdhsnwjinsjxnwjnjjxnwjncjnweicn3jnvrnv -I have no idea to say xD oh yeah btw, I captured another image, umumu~

a click to higher size, umm yes.

So guys, it may be my posts today, I'll be back very soon with much love! Have a nice day, xxo.

Le Zombie

2011-06-27T12:01:00.000+07:00

After a long time googling I found this crappy game, named 'Ouija Board'. and as you know, an Ouija board (pronounced "wee-gee" or "wee-ja") also known as a spirit board or talking board. Omg wtf? And because I believe nothing in it, I tried to find an evidence and I found out these questions with creepy results;

Me: "Am I alive?"

Ouija: "Not Clear."

Me: "Does she love me?"

Ouija: "No."

Me: "What can I do to have her?"

Ouija: "Unknown."

Me: "What am I for her?"

Ouija: "Nothing. Leave her and get new one."

Me: "Am I Zombie?"

Ouija: "Yes."

Me: "Does ***x love me?"

Ouija: "No."

Me: "What should I do now? *frustated*"

Ouija: "Cannot say."

Me: "Who loves me?"

Ouija: "A friend."

Me: "Is it ***i?"

Ouija: "Yes."

Me: "*happy* But I know it's even impossible."

Ouija: "No."

Just because the prognostic is almost right with what I am feeling now. I probed it.

Me: "When do I die?"

Ouija: "At the proper time."

..fuck. I know that I'm going to die at the proper time, and only God who knows when.
But really, guys. This Ouija is really nice, ♥. I asked some questions and got really nice results. I know. I shouldn't trust in such a fool-prophecy, but we had just fun, right? :D

Get Revolution

2011-06-24T16:25:00.000+07:00

A good teamwork, thanks to Google

so i'm officially a senior high school student now, yay me, applause me! and i've to get ready to be adapted again. i wonder how cute i will be, wearing a small pants and blinders, and i'll act as a pirate. i win this game, bitchez ♥

and MOS, isn't really interesting. i mean ..its too old, and dusty. should we get a new one? yes, baby. and i'll make it be funnier. yay, you guys should thank to me, i feel like Lord. and all about those prejudices? umh no.

" Don't scare me with those outrageous words, because one thing you should know. I never get beaten up. " - My Friend. ooh how disdainful his words are, ♥

and all over your happiness, there'd be sorrow who will laugh over you :D don't be happy because now you're on the peak. sometimes you could fall off. i'll be your competitor, and so are they, ☺

What Will Save Us?

2011-06-22T21:32:00.002+07:00

found on Tumblr with all its mean.. oh wait momma, i don't even understand what Grafitty stands for and i don't even know what this means. what am I now. a retard? i know i am.

it feels so awkward, and you're gonna vomit when you say about "whoah, it's Senior High School!!! and I'm still not ready. Do you mind looking at a 14 years old boy, wearing those insignificancy-uniform, with Vans shoes, and bloodshot eyes, and piercings?". ..wait, did I say 'Vans shoes' ? it isn't even used now, haha. And I personally thought that Senior High School would be bullying, sarcastic, and all that bad prejudices. Is it just me or anyone else feels this too, or am I just too paranoid to face up the Senior High School? o_o time will tell the truth....
and when the time will tell about it, we're gonna watch this;

an old creature, captured by unknown, with all its hilarious slides.

Lunar Eclipse

2011-06-16T03:58:00.002+07:00

so guys, aku update jam setengah 4 pagi :'D hal yg patut dibanggakan, bukan? ok, to the point aja ya, sekarang adalah; "GERHANA BULAN TOTAL" atau gaulnya "LUNAR ECLIPSE" apa? Eclipse? berarti ada Bella, Jacob, sama Edward nya dong ya? oh. tentu tidak xD tapi anda sekalian boleh menganggap saya sebagai Edward kok, kawan-kawan :3

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Beberapa foto dari twitter dan kamera~~busuk~~ saya;

ini siang hari sebelum gerhana tiba :) langit sangat cerah.

ini maghrib :D bulannya terang

agvsggyanjuehdsybnmkiejhub ketutupan awan :'D

waaah it appeared :3

Bulannya bagus banget :) Purnama lagi, hehehe.

OMG, WHO ATE THE MOON? WHY IT BECAME RED? KJAIUJDWKAFJKqn

Hampir separuh dari ~~nafasku~~ bulan :)

TARAARAAA~ foto ini diambil dari kamera DSLR milik teman saya di twitter.

thats my capture ._. harusnya udah kemakan setengah kan -_-

daripada bosen nggak ngapa-ngapain sembari menunggu bulannya kemakan (?) saya memutuskan untuk foto-foto dan ini adalah beberapa hasil yg terbaik :p

dimples <3

Norak? Yes, I know. -_-

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Ohya by the waaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy, perut saya bunyi ._. nggak deng, kan bulannya udah kemakan tu ahaha ini gambarnya :3

thought it was the nicest <3 whoever took this pic, i love you :*

it seems like given an Alfa effect :)

Red moon :)

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So guys, this is my post about Lunar Eclipse <3 i have no words to be spoken, so. I'll leave and sleep and wake up at 5 :) see ya, xXo

Photos are from Twitter, My Phone.

FINAL OF BATTLE

2011-06-08T11:08:00.002+07:00

so, nun saya sangat mengenaskan. sangat bikin malu.

35,30

dan SMA mana yang mau menampung saya... :(

Medio 5 Juni 2011

2011-06-05T07:54:00.197+07:00

well, 5 juni 2011. hari minggu. yes i know. garing. tapi di balik ke-garing-an-nya itu terdapat sebuah memori yang ngga bisa dilupain dengan mudah.

" WISUDA SMP "

well, aku nggak pernah nyangka kalo aku bakal jadi anak SMA yang notabene agak asing di kepala saya~~, atau nggak kebiasa aja.~~ acaranya sih emang simple, nggak berbelit-belit juga~~ya walaupun sambutannya itu nggak nahan ._. ada yang dari ini, itu, but that was all worth it.~~ peristiwa kayak gini cuman ada 3 tahun sekali dan belum tentu dihadiri oleh orang/teman/guru/pacar yang sama. kalo menurutku wisuda kali ini lebih berkesan daripada wisuda SD tahun 2008 silam. walaupun aku cuman setahun di SMPN 1 Turen ~~karena saya anak pindahan, nggak tanya ya? yaudah.~~ tapi banyak kenangan yang terukir di sana. mulai dari nggak punya temen, jadi yang paling diperhatikan oleh guru-guru ~~ah senangnya~~, dan masih banyak lagi yang ngga bisa diungkapkan dengan kata-kata.

kenangan pas pertama kali aku masuk sana itu apa ya, oh ya ada beberapa, simak dulu ceritanya ya baru aku post tentang wisudanya hehe ._. here we go;

pagi-pagi itu aku naik sepeda dari rumah, karena jaraknya deket sih ya kan daripada jalan capek, nyampe di sekolah. aku belum kenal siapa-siapa, masuk ke gerbang banyak wali murid dan sebagainya -_- malu? enggak. tapi nervous. ~~apa bedanya ya ._.~~ trus aku jalan ke lapangan dengan PD-nya dan ruame. banyak anak main volley dan aku harap aku bisa membaur dengan mereka secepatnya. aku belum sempat kenalan karena aku ngga tau harus ngapain.

duduk. bengong. ndengerin lagu, waktu itu masih jaman-jamannya Speechless - Lady Gaga, sama Warmness on The Soul - Avenged Sevenfold, karena lagu itu buat Destroyerz community. tiba-tiba ada yang nyapa aku dan ngajak kenalan. for the first time.

"hai nama kamu siapa? anak pindahan ya? dari mana?"
"oh iya, kenalin aku Bobby dari SMPN 20 Malang"
"gabung aja sama kita-kita"
"oh boleh-boleh :D"

dan ternyata mereka segerombolan anak kelas 8 ._. naik ke kelas 8, jelasnya. dan mereka lihat kelas saya masih kelas 8 yg di seragam, haha. nggak lama, kita disuruh kumpul di lapangan, ada aba-aba dari Pak Slamet, beliau bilang katanya ngga ada perubahan kelas dan saya ditaruh di kelas 9H.

kesan pertama saya untuk kelas 9H alias Pasha/Bohaii ~~(nama yang aneh, saya tau.)~~ ; yatuhan kelas ini garing, ngga asik, individualisme nya tinggi, kelasnya nggak gaul, dan blablabla. aku pengennya buat sesuatu yg berbeda dari kelas ini, karena mereka ber-genk. sendiri-sendiri. beda sama 8B dulu, yang bisa membaur dengan cepat.

Hari demi hari pun berlalu, momen puasa. ada pondok Ramadhan dan saya masih sangat ingat kalau saya cuman bisa menghafal 10 surat pas disuruh maju, wkkw aib terbesar.
pas puasa itu masih belum ada pelajaran tambahan, habis lebaran.

Kita skip ke lebaran. Salam-salaman, Try Out pertama, ketemu sama My Laoda, nama saya mulai terdengar sampai ke seluruh penjuru di sekolah. omg and my first exercise was bad :c Matematika dapet 5.75 karena saya ngga ngerti kesebangunan. sangat memalukan, i know.

habis momen try out itu, aku ke rumah Hanum sama Andaru, Karina, sama Pavita buat rekaman a.k.a Lip-sync :D dressed up like mad people but that was so amazing, videonya ada di youtube :D these;

itu yang Bad Romance parody, saya emang jelek di depan kamera..

itu yang Poker Face, saya memang ngga bakat jadi pelawak -_- i know i am.

lanjutannya sih pengen nyoba Just Dance gitu tapi ngga jadi, due of many homeworks, Try-outs, etcetera.

Trus pembagian rapor sisipan, trus classmeet, kelasku juara apa ya aku lupa -_- yang paling heboh dari semua yang paling heboh -_- ..volleyball. dan ini foto-fotonya;

alay -_- yes i knoow

badan tegap, senyum ditarik 3cm, dan maksa.

I AM GONNA KILL YOU WITH MAAAHHH BRAAAIIIINNNNN HAHAHA (?) oke geje

...

sst, aku ngganteng lho(?) mekso.com

ekspresi saya. lol

Aaaah kangen masa-masa kejayaan :'D masa-masa before it ended -_- oh tuhan, semoga masa-masa seperti itu terulang lagi ya :'3 ah sampe mana tadi, lupa deh. OHYA tanggal 30 Desember 2010 itu foto-foto tersebut diupload di facebook~

Trus apa ya, ohya tahun baru garing. cuman di rumah nenek, nonton transformer, marissa, smsan, telpon, online, udah itu aja, ngga ada yg berkesan.

FEBRUARY 2011, try out yang ke-3. nilaiku naik, naik 3.65 :'D jadi 32.75 seneng, tapi peringkatku tetep. habis itu kakek saya meninggal. shock.

Maret 2011. bulan yang paling menegangkan. H-31 menuju UNAS. banyak tugas, hampir putus, masalah, pokoknya bener-bener diuji ketabahannya, ujian sekolah, ujian praktek, debat sejarah dan yang ngerjakan cuman saya, dikritik pedes sama temen-temen, berantem, sindir-sindiran, ulang tahunnya Devi Laoda :p, ulang tahun kakaknya bima juga, sering sakit. LOTS OF THING HAVE HAPPENED. and these are mementos;

dari kiri; saya, Diana, Vivi, Talitha, Anissa. kita lagi nungguin giliran buat maju pidato. Ujian Praktik Bahasa Indonesia. omg 0_o

saya, Bima, Wimardika. ini saya lagi mau lari buat lompat jauh dan kena kamera otomatis reflek~ wk

Aliffian, saya, Erlinda, Tania, Diana, Wimardika. foto pas istirahat ujian praktik olahraga :P

yak, the same as above.

Anissa, saya, Vivi, Erlinda [yg berdiri], Bukhori [yg senden], Fani [sebelah kanan], Ceper alias Ria [berkerudung], lainnya ga jelas -_- anywaay saya cakep ya? narsis.com

Vivi, Kartika, Ria, saya :D

Bima, Memer, nggatau, saya. ini lagi liat anak ujian praktik Bahasa Jawa yaitu .....MENYANYI, dan saya nyanyi Stasiun Balapan, so bad i sang it -_-

saya, lagi senyum-senyum karena udah hafal lirik lagunya Didi Kempot itu. YAY.

saya, lagi nungguin flashlight kamera lama jadi saya bosan so saya senyumnya ngga pas.

yang angkat tangan itu Bukhori, dia sedang nyervis bola volley, sangat mengesankan. kami semua tersepona dan terhura.

Aliffian, Anissa, Fani [tas pink], Vivi, Cindy, nggatau, Magrid, Erlinda, Pak Geografi, Bukhori, Afrinia, saya, Kartika [yg nutupin muka], Ria, Sasmita [aslinya di sebelah saya tapi dia kecepit]. ah seperti keluarga besar ahahah :D

Vivi, Pak Slamet, Diana. ehm ..no comment yak, ahahha :P

Cuman itu aja sih foto yang bagus, lainnya biasa -_- bisa dilihat di facebook saya.

habis ujian praktek, nunggu di kelas bimbel dan ..nilai saya turun, -_- di kelas menunggu UNAS :D ..nangis. yeah i know that i am sloppy, i often cry just because of a love :( weak? yes i am. wes pokoknya masa-masa tersulit sebelum UNAS dan aku juga udah nyoba buat ikhlas. i don't really care, i should be focused :) dan yaa apa mungkin gara-gara kepikiran itu ya? ah, biarlah.

pas hari H nya, alhamdulillah aku bisa, aku udah ngoreksi berkali-kali, aku nggak nyontek, tapi bodohnya aku mencocokkan jawaban Matematika dan IPA saya ke TEMAN saya yang sepaket. alhasil nilai saya jelek, dan

JANGAN PERNAH NYONTEK PAS UJIAN NASIONAL ATAU NASIB ANDA AKAN BERAKHIR SEPERTI ...SAYA -_-

cuman nyocokkan, dan itu cuman 1 nomer T_T ya Allah nyesel.

ngenes? iya. tapi itu bukan jalannya. aku udah bersyukur, alhamdulillah ngga ada yg di bawah nilainya :) maybe SMA bisa lebih baik? why not? :D

lamaaaaaa, nunggu pengumuman kelulusan, besoknya persis langsung WISUDA. siap atau nggak siap? ya nyesek juga sih, semua udah jadi keluargaku :)

Dan mengapa di setiap perpisahan, baru aku menyadari arti TEMAN yang sesungguhnya? walaupun aku sering usilin mereka, sampe mereka marah, tapi sebenernya aku cuma mau have fun aja, mungkin cara aku salah tapi i don't care :p hehehe

5 Juni 2011.

tepat 365 hari yang lalu, aku nyiapin buat Perpisahan kelas IX di SMPN 20, dateng jam 6 pagi buat nata panggung, kemarennya pulang sore, siram-siraman :'D fotonya ada di facebook semua, aku ngga mungkin upload semua -_-, pokoknya berkesan :'3 aku ngrekam semuanya tapi kehapus gara-gara HP kena virus :'( oh god aku cuman upload foto aja, hh.

tapi pada 5 juni 2011 itu, aku yang jadi peserta di GSG Pindad. paginya aku ketemu Daryl, akhirnya bareng deh kan aku juga ngga ada temen, trus kumpul ketemu sama temen-temen. Aku nggak nyangka kalo bakal berakhir seperti ini *ea. dan yang masuk 10 besar bisa diakses di webnya SMPN 1 Turen kalau para pembaca tulisan ini mau heheh ada di atas kok, dan lihat nomor 9 :p hahaha.

awalnya, band-band pada perform, acara inti,penutupan. sediiih banget dan aku ngrekam (y) upload video nanti yaa~ dan ada beberapa foto, ini diaaa;

Erlinda, Adriana, Cindy, Talitha, Afrinia, Aku, Ari, Bukhori :D kami adalah keluarga yg bahagia (?)

sama Bu Yayuk :D dan Bu Ekonomi

Ian sama aku hahaha

Bima, Memer hahahaha :P

mingkem, Mer :p

geje? saya tau. ndak berbakat jadi fotografer kok ahaha :D anyway guys, jangan lost contact ya, tetep nyapa lek ketemu! semoga kita semua sukses, ok? amiin :)

**update nyusul

Number 4

2011-05-31T18:41:00.003+07:00

there is no word i can put down here;

with love.

MALANG TEMPO DOELOE

2011-05-22T12:45:00.001+07:00

ALLRIGHT GUYS, FROM NOW I'LL START BLOGGING WITH FULL CAPS, or not.
so, yesterday (5-21-2011) was so much much much much much FUN!!!!!!!! yes guys, start with F in full caps, wkwk.
kemaren juga hari reunian saya sama yg di 20 dulu aaaaaa they didn't eveen changeeeeeee <3 sama sperti dulu. heboh, agak lol,, and so on :'D saya sangat senang sekali, rutenya juga agak mbulet sih, ketemu banyak temen :D jadi pertama kita nungguin Ivan Alvian di PU a.k.a perpustakaan umum gitu, rame? nggak juga sih, belum terlalu lah. kami menapakkan kaki sekitar jam 3.30PM gitu deh, and my phone was dying -.-" nah akhirnya ketemu si Ai Ven (baca: Ivan) di PU, dia langsung menyerobot HP saya -_- ya udah kita trus hmm kemana ya, lupa. pokoknya ritualdulu kok, muterin MTD 2x sambil teriak-teriak heboh gitu ~~AHAHAHAHAH AIB~~ dan Fenny, Mega, Sitti, Lala berteriak sekencang mungkin karena dokar .__. malu lho beneran. like; guys, u mad? hmmppffh, ya terus kita foto-foto deh ahaha, walaupun nggak bisa foto-foto banyak, setidaknya saya buat kenang-kenangan di MTD; these are the ones i can post...

waaa foto-fotonya kurang banyak :c tapi ngga apa deh, masih ada seh tapi di HP temenku. later yaa :D oh iya perlu diketahui ya; MTD tidak memiliki tempat sampah. ahaha aib terbesar :p hihi, habis ituu saya dan gerombolan sirkus saya mencari Irfandi, Tian, Jeffri, Bakti, Lutfi ke MOG, di-smsin katanya di parkiran, alhasil keluar lagi deh tapi kan udah makaaan :D Jamur Crispy 8 ribu rupiah ahahah, sangat lol. habis itu kita ribut di jalan, like;

" HE REK AKU TAK PULAAANG, WES MAGHRIB "
" JANGAN AAA, PULANGE JAM 10 AE LHOOO "
" rek aku luwe .. ayo mangaaaan " ~~sst ini saya yang bilang wkwkwk~~
" rek ntar pulang kapan? "
" reeeekkkk ada angkooot "
" REK SELAK RAME LHHHOOOOOO!!!! "

dan sebagainya lah -.- debat gitu deh ahaha akhirnya Lala pulang sama Fenny :c kini tinggallah aku dan yg lainnya, menelusuri jalan dimana kita berfoto-foto di bawah lampu akakak aib ya -__- yaudah, pas udah sampe MTD eh si Ivan, Mega, Sitti malah pulang :c yaudah deh, kami yg tersisa melanjutkan perjalanan ke MUSEUM BRAWIJAYA :D tapi rame, eh sebelumnya makan pangsit dulu deng, baru ke Rumah Hantu yg ..sumpah, nggak bondo. mahal, 7 ribu, duit saya membrutal habis. beli minum bolak-balik, untungnya toilet tidak dibutuhkan :D yay, terus sebelum ke Rumah Hantu, lewat jalan yg mau ke Museum kan, itu ruame bangeeet gila lo ya mana si Bakti itu ndorong-ndorong, untungnya aja depan ku Jeffri, jadi ada tameng ^.^ dan mereka teriak-teriak ..gajelas. ah, jijik deh pokoknya mana saya keringetan, panas, sumpek, udah bisa berdiri aja syukur alhamdulillah banget itu -__- lol, tapi ini serius.

nyampe ya di wahananya, kita langsung pesen tiket, aku ..takut pas mau masuk. jadi pegangan jaketnya Jeffri :p dan Irfandi nyrendel mulu, like; f*ck saya kesandung bolak-balik mana di wahana hantunya saya dan Bakti kompak nge-SCREAM. padahal yo nggak ada apa-apa, wkwkwk dan baju saya kecantol -_- i thought it was a satan grabbing my clothe :c tekanan batin hahahaha, dan selanjutnya kita mau pulang. aku migrain banget, mau meledak rasanya. wffh, mana jalanan MACET, and jam menunjukkan pukul 8.39PM. macet banget, sejam lebih dan kita putuskan untuk jalan sampe Pizza Hut. aduh, my legs were totally huuurrrrttttttt, dan ternyata Mega sama Sitti ngga jadi pulang, mereka nunggu di hotel pelangi -_- hore, selamat mengantri ya HAHAHAHAH. mana kita salah keluar. jadi banyak yg keluar lewat pintu masuk dan SANGAT RAME.

astaganagabonar2, yaudah deh terima pasrah :c baru jam 9an kita dapet AMG, untung aku ke rumah nenekku, kalo nggak? habis deh saya. dan nggak dimarahi looh AHHAHAHA jadi gini toh rasanya jadi anak baru gedhe :') sangat mengaharukan. dan kini tinggallah saya jalan sama Irfandi ke Arjosari, kan kita satu jalur tapi dia naik ojek!! NGGAK ADIL HUH. mppph, habis pulang langsung update status facebook kaya gini;

sangat lol, ya gitu aja deh pengalaman MTD tahun ke VI :D moga tahun depan bisa dateng lagi :)

*nb: saya udah post ttg MTD 3x dalam 3 tahun terakhir ini, arsipnya lihat saja di bulan Mei, pasti ketemu ahahahah. yaudah gitu aja, sekian saya akan undur diri, terima kasih (?)

Revenge Idea

2011-05-21T10:12:00.001+07:00

I just want you to know that I'm never gonna give up. I'd never be defeated, because I'm strong, and I'd do anything to make me satisfied.
Never underestimate me, cause you'd never know what would I do to you. either murder you, or make you feel in pain.

Justin Bieber

2011-05-18T08:08:00.001+07:00

ok so i wanna tell you something about my dream, it was sooo weird, and priceless ahaha. well, ok.

so i dreamed about this boy last night, jadi kemaren aku mimpiin Bieber konser di Indomart ahahah ngga nyambung ya? saya tau itu. dan parahnya, yang nonton itu banyaak banget, saya di sana ceritanya mau belanja apa gitu lupa eh tiba-tiba orang-orang pada teriak ngga jelas, i thought it was fire. jadi saya lari ke luar dan taraaaaaa........... ada JB dan Usher lagi konser dan pas keluar itu tempatnya berubah jadi Istora Senayan Jakarta. lol banget kan, mereka nyanyi 'Never Say Never' dan saya taunya mereka cuman bilang "and I would never say neverrr yeah baby check and i would never say neverrrr....." gitu diulang-ulang. gila? memang. terus akhirnya saya kebangun jam 3 kurang tadi zzz...

akhir-akhir ini saya memang mendamba-dambakan liat konser LIVE. terserah mau festival atau normal tour. beberapa pekan lalu juga saya mimpi saya liat Avenged Sevenfold LIVE di Surabaya (cuman mimpi seh heheh) Matt nyanyi Nightmare dan teriak-teriak gitu. AAAHHH CONCERT-SYNDROME-ATTACK!!11!!

gara-gara Syn Gates kan pas wawancara tentang 'Not ready To Die' yaitu lagu Avenged yang baru, dia bilang katanya mau datang ke Asia Tenggara dan ini buktinya:

READ IT HERE AND HERE

gimana saya nggak mencak-mencak. ada lagi yang bilang dia tour ke Surabaya tapi kebenarannya nanti saya cari di Google makanya saya sudah nabung nih :D I've been saving up my moneeeeyyyy <3 tapi ya nggak tau kalo nanti gagal :c ya jangan sampe lah. saya pengen banget foto sama Matt *__* semoga juga waktunya nggak berbenturan dengan urusan sekolahan. yah, you know about it. watching them live is the most beautiful apocalypse ever.. well, berita tentang A7X nanti dulu ya.

dan foto ini; kata teman-teman saya bagus jadi saya mau berburu DVD nya :3 ~~atau numpang nonton di rumah temen juga boleh~~ aha :D

segini dulu ya updatean saya. nggak bermutu emang, tapi biarlah. yasudah, saya mau legalisir raapor dulu nih :D see ya

Camouflage

2011-05-17T14:10:00.000+07:00

daripada bosen ngga ngapa-ngapain pasca liburan....

jadi, ceritanya saya lagi bosen dan ada Photoshop CS3 yg lagi nganggur ya udah deh, tapi hasilnya ya jelek sih. yes, i know that i'm still an amateur. cari-cari tutorial di Google ahahah, dicampur dengan ~~bahan kimia~~ brush, dan sebagainya. gambar yg terakhir jelek, why? beacuse itu ngetarani banget ._. dan ya begitulah. yang pertama juga ngga begitu jelas, efeknya itu apa. yg kedua juga aneh. artless.. ahahah.
anyway, sekarang saya lagi nungguin hasil ujian nasional looh :3 yang tanggalnya nggak jelas kapan mihihihi. ada yang bilang tanggal 4 juni entar, ada lagi yang bilang tanggal 23 kan pengalaman tahun-tahun lalu gitu, rumornya sih seperti itu ahahaha. ya, harapan saya sih semoga bisa sukses. kalo nilai UN sukses yang seneng siapa coba? yang jelas diri sendiri ya, terus orang tua, sahabat-sahabat, dan mungkin juga pacar. tapi bagi yang ngga punya pacar ngga usah khawatir juga ya lagipula jomblo itu enak kok :)
ohya kalian ada acara kemana pas liburan ini? beberapa sekolah ada yang rekreasi, tapi sekolah saya enggak wakakak. nggak apa juga sih, lagipula sayanya kok yang rekreasi. udah bikin jadwal juga lagi xD

oh iya, ini yang ngga kalah penting nih;

kalian pada dateng nggak? khususnya yg ada di Malang. berbagi cerita ya, tahun ini adalah tahun ke-3 bagi saya untuk datang lagi :D dan datangnya pas tanggal 23 Mei. tapi berhubung tahun ini tutupnya aja tanggal 22 Mei jadi saya putuskan untuk datang pada tanggal 21 Mei bersama teman-teman saya xD ada yang mau join? foto/video menyusul ya :D kalau ada yang mau datang, datang aja nggak apa. jarang ada moment kaya gini, iya kan? iya dong ya. kapan lagi kita liat kebudayaan Malang yang dulu? sekarang udah jadi jaman modern sih ahahah. ada gulali, soto, nasi goreng, and so on. ada tarian-tarian gitu deh ahah. biasanya kalau mau penutupan, malamnya ada Jae. ada mas jaelangkung gitu haha :D sekalian aja ajakin foto (?) eh jangan deng.

tempatnya udah ada di gambar, di sepanjang jalan ijen. ehm, mungkin segini aja dulu kali ya, lain kali disambung. semoga siswa kelas IX tahun ini lulus 100% ya, amiiiiiiinnnn.

have a nice holiday :)

Soundtrack of my life

2011-05-06T11:35:00.006+07:00

So, here’s how the game works.
▲ Open your music library (iTunes, Winamp, Windows Media Player, iPod, etc.)
▲ Put it on shuffle, press play
▲ For every question, type the song that’s playing
▲ Press the next button to answer the next question
▲Have fun!

Let’s start! ♫

Opening credits: Cinta - Melly Goeslaw ft Krisdayanti (yah sedih lagi deh :c)

Waking up: Ima Made Nando Mo - Mass Missile (SEMANGAAAATTTT, full of spirit!!!!!!!!!)

First day at school: Don't Go Breaking My Heart - Elton John (.......)

In love: All For Love - Michael Bolton (cinta butuh kesetiaan, yak sedih lagi kan...)

Have a bad day: I'm With You - Avril Lavigne (kita harus setia kawan kan? ya ga? ya ga? ga. atau aku yg bawa sial ya..)

Fight song: Alive - Raiko (kenapa ini penuh semangat sekali...)

Do something crazy: Seishun Kyousoukyoku - Sambomaster (pas ngelakuin hal gila harus semangat, iyak sangat mengesankan.)

Breaking up: Said I Loved You But I Lied - Michael Bolton (yah :( sedih lagi kaaaaaaaaannnn)

Prom: Welcome To The Family - Avenged Sevenfold (....)

Regret something: Mimpi - Anggun (PAS BANGET LAGUNYA ASDFKJKHGGGJJHH....)

Life is good: My Humps - Black Eyed Peas (.....my humps my humps *dances*)

Mental breakdown: Do Me Right - Lady Gaga (o_o kalo aku lagi down emang suka maksa hahaha)

Driving: Helena - My Chemical Romance (ROCK!!!!!!!)

Flashback: Seize The Day - Avenged Sevenfold (YAH KENAPA LAGU INI.....nangis lagi deh inget lagi deh :'( hiks)

Wedding : Ich Tu Dir Weh - Rammstein (astaga, parah, Ich Tu Dir Weh kan artinya 'I hurt you' KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.....)

Someone you love died: The Only Hope For Me Is You - My Chemical Romance (kesannya kayak putus asa)

Birth of child: Dead! - My Chemical Romance (HAHHAAHAHAHAHAHHAAH.......... ok I REALLY hate childrens)

Final battle: Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen (.......)

Death scene: Zombie - The Cranberries (KYAAAAA KENAPA PAS BANGEEETTTT OMG OMG)

Funeral song: My Way - Frank Sinatra (nggak ngerti...)

End credits: Hot - Avril Lavigne (....lol)

intinya; semua yang berbau kesedihan pasti pas sama lagu yang aku shuffle ;'( my life is full of tragic, yes i know.

i give an underline and bold style for every songs i think are meaningful.

Goodbye, England's rose

2011-05-05T11:55:00.000+07:00

so, i was just browsing about Lady Diana's funeral video and i found a video that made me cried. it was sung by Elton John and i still couldn't stop crying. so here it is;

Goodbye England's rose..
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
You called out to our country
And you whispered to those in pain
Now you belong to heaven...
And the stars spell out your name

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Loveliness we've lost
These empty days without your smile
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child
And even though we try
The truth brings us to tears
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart..
Goodbye England's rose
From a country lost without your soul
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And you footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will ....

i shared the video and the lyrics i heard from this song. don't know whether it's right or not because i'm rater deaf. lol no. i still can't believe that Princess Diana was gone..

Old Theme

2011-04-08T14:20:00.002+07:00

hi guys, sorry ya jarang update, you know lah, there are lts of activity i gotta do :c akhir-akhir ini aku sibuk, merana, and something like that. gimana ya, galau. takut. sedih. seneng. pokoknya campur, so idk what should i feel right now -_-"

tadi habis download lagu OST Naruto sama Bleach :DD omg i keep remembering my past :DDD

dan juga, bentar lagi UNAS, its just counting down the days, like really? have i been dreaming? bayangin aja, UNAS udah di depan mata lho, tanggal 25-28 april.. bakal banyak kejadian yang akan terjadi pada detik itu juga :D anyway, aku udah siap secara mental dan fisik. i know i can do it :DD yeah, motivated, am i? aaanndddd, habis unas juga, wow bayangin aja, SMA. sampe sekarang pun belum jelas kemana :c i hope i can be back to malang again :)) dan seperti yang saya duga, banyak kejadian 'unexpected' sebelum unas -_- like, nilai turun, problems come over and over again, haters yang sirik yang ingin menjatuhkan :))) well, saya kan bukan anak yang 'hey, saya bobby pratama yang sangat gaul, nenteng BB kemana-mana, pake behel like f*cking yeah, dan saya anak eksis.' or kinda that. saya lho cuma anak yang cupu yang tiap hari, oh enggak juga deng, pergi ke perpus, ~~just gonna meet someone~~. tiap hari, karena sekarang kan just waiting for the battle started kan, jadi kelasnya itu cuman pelajaran yang produktif aja, dan saya cuman di kelas. gak bisa teriak-teriak. karena kan kelasnya diacak, saya turun ke kelas c :DDD but it was all worth it :)

ada juga anak yang ingin banget menghancurkan saya, but wait, am i a paper which can be teared out? nggak kan, tapi saya juga nggak nyalahin kok :)) toh yang rugi juga mereka. just be cool, self. oh ya anyway i hav some edited pictures, here they are:

well, enough. maaf ya sekali lagi saya nggak bisa blogging banyak-banyak :c tapi saya usahakan habis unas nanti :DD because there'll be lots of breathtaking moments :DD yay!!
pokoknya aku harus serius dalam unas ini, and reach the high scores :DD amien, pokoknya Bahasa Inggris sama Matematika harus dapat 10 or at least 9 koma lah :DD well guys i gotta go!!

see you :) au revoir

Irony

2011-03-31T11:51:00.002+07:00

if only i had the only choice, i'd never wake up to face today.

i'd rather be thrown away in Nile river
and feel so wonderful without thinking about what my future will be.

and feel like a Monalisa, it's good when you couldn't see what secrets on her eyes are.

or i'd better become a mannequin and a dead corpse found below your bed, rather than be a human.
you know it's good when you can't even feel something / even taste it anymore.

yes, it is.

and you've become so numb. firstly, it feels so blur to see who will be your next turn, and when you can't feel something alive.

it's when you're dead.

and i know i'm not even alive.

with messy grammars && teardrops && a cup of caffeine named 'coffee', i wrote this.

guess what i'm feeling about.

BROKEN HEARTS && COFFEE && GRAYSCALE EFFECT

2011-03-30T17:19:00.002+07:00

HELLO GUYS, STARTED FROM NOW I'M LITERALLY GONNA WRITE IN FULL CAPS, or even not.
hari ini sangat epik, tadi nangis di kelas gara-gara diputusin sama pacar. well, bukan apa ya tapi kan aku juga udah sayang banget sama dia.

i fkng love her from the beginning of 2011 and i still can't forget
every moment with her,
every time we were together,
every words we said,
every problems we solved together,
pokoknya 'everything' lah :'( damn why did i cry? why was i so weak? why didn't i push her away and kill her? no, i couldn't do that because i love her and i don't wanna hurt her no matter what happens.
whether she hurts me or not, tapi nggak bisa.

kenapa coba?

aku kaget 1/2 mati pas dia bilang: “ kita jadi teman aja ya :) ”.
damn, aku langsung meneteskan bulir-bulir di mataku. i couldn't breathe, i couldn't feel anything, i was so fucking numb.

besoknya, jadi pas sekarang, aku ketemuan sama dia pas istirahat. harapan terbesarku agar aku bisa naik banding, tapi apa.

she still kept her mind.

dan, aku cuma bisa meratapi nasib. well, ini semua sepenuhnya salahku. fuck you bobby why did you do it huh? if you didn't do it then everything will be OK.

but, nggak ada gunanya juga nyalahin diri sendiri. toh, nasi sudah menjadi bubur ~~ayam~~. jadi aku harus ngapain dong sekarang?

The days I'm gonna walk, won't be the same without your attendance here.
It's been a day since we've broken up && I kept crying && whining && squealing like a shit.

but, aku nggak mau maksa dia buat sama aku lagi. it's all up to her :) kalau ini yang bikin dia bisa bahagia, aku rela.
walau sakit hati ini ditinggalkan, i gotta do it for you :')
cause you were && you are && you'll always be my spirit.
I'll always keep you.

naja, ich liebe dich wirklich und ich vermisse dich :')

*sobbed*

9H

2011-03-28T16:20:00.000+07:00

“ kita semua satu, satu dalam keanekaragaman yang menonjol
antar satu sama lain
kita semua satu, dalam segala hal
walau kita terlalu mementingkan
individualisme masing-masing tapi kita
bisa menunjukkan bahwa kita kompak
walau kadang badai menerjang tapi
itu semua telah berlalu, 'kan?
dan kita
memiliki apa yang tidak kelas lain miliki
yaitu momen kebersamaan. ”

OK, nggak tau kenapa aku pengen nangis pas aku baca quote itu. udah agak lama juga quote itu aku bikin, tapi sayangnya aku belum sempat menunjukkannya.
nggak terasa, rek. kebersamaan kita dari awal sampai detik ini sudah hampir berakhir dan akan menyisakan kenangan.
nggak terasa, canda tawa dan duka yang kita lalui, akan menjadi sebuah memoriam belaka.

pokoknya itu, aku nggak tau harus nulis apa lagi di blog ini yg jelas, diantara kita semua, walau kita ~~saling~~ membenci tapi aku tau pasti diantara kita ada yg gak rela kalau kita pisah. ya, kan?

hari ini ujian praktik terakhir, kita udah ngelalui ujian sekolah, try out, dll bareng-bareng.

kita semua adalah SAMA.

foto dan video menyusul ya, 'cs i'm on mobile.

rek, satu pesan ku.

jangan lupain kebersamaan kita ya.

semoga PASHA/BOHAIY/apalah itu, atau jelasnya kita semua. BISA LULUS 100% REK, amin..amin..amin.

x.

Hotdog

2011-03-28T16:03:00.000+07:00

OK LOL IT MAY NEVER BE THE SAME AS THE TITLE, BUT YEAH I ATE IT.
whoa, bold letters. AND anyway, s o r r y guys for not being here for so fucking long. things were messed up and i was so clueless.

yesterday was epic. i met Yudha or also known as Bima's brother, and we were jogging like we were doing a nostalgia.

he was so ë.p.i.c, with bold letters and started with 'ë' [i don't fkng care about how to pronounce the accent like that, ofzo] and he was soooo distinctive with bima -_- oh well, he was more into 'bapak-bapak yang agak bule tapi gaul' and bima was more into Arabian ~~or the Ancient Egyptian thing~~. and we went to our school and shared something like his experiences, etc. and i enjoyed it. he wasn't like i've thought before, i've thought him like he's boring, etc. but it was all NOT. omg what.

and i had no idea to say something when we were walking together. ~~cuz yo know, that i am a hyper and i cannot be calmed down~~

awkward.

OH OH, photos are coming soon. i'm blogging on mobile.

see ya, xoxo.

Cynosure

2011-01-24T15:18:00.002+07:00

we're even different, because we've the way that we chose before.
and I ain't you, also you ain't me.
so there's nothing between us.
there's nothing among people.

we're different just the way we are

Zombie Is Even Alive

2011-01-21T11:51:00.006+07:00

i can't even be happy without this one: Lady Gaga has announced the new album called "Born This Way" and song called "Scheiße"

AAANNNDDDDD FFFUUUUUU AWESOME AS ALWAYS. GAGA DID IT SUPER CATCHY.

Get that video? xD yay me, gatau kenapa ya tapi akhir-akhir ini i'm-so-addicted-to-GaGa-songs-and-die-you. haha, corny. tapi aku nggak tau lagi mau nulis apa :) stay tuned for the next updates,

xoBobz.

It's good

2011-01-15T14:30:00.000+07:00

unspoken words. i'm really speechless

01012011

2011-01-01T22:16:00.003+07:00

First day on January and it's like: 01012011. today was such a useless day. Lazying in my bed and I'm gonna be less tweeting, facebooking, blogging, tumblring, and everything I do in internet.
I wanna start 2011 with a new spirit :)

and so guys, sorry for not being here.

2011 will be like...

2010-12-31T23:05:00.004+07:00

well guyz, in less than an hour more, Indonesia will be in 2011. (yes, it's 10.50pm at the moment).

&& all of my tears have been covered by big smiles who always accompany me during this ~~sucks~~ holiday :) well, not that bad. i was just like an idiot, formly.
too many vows, promises, things i wished, and so on THAT i didn't even do it yet :'( i'm scared....i'm anxious, i just want to discover myself, as Bobby Pratama.
a man who always jokes, sometimes being a coward, often being a loser. i.......i don't even want to do it in nextyear. all i can do isn't just pretending as a good boy, though i'm really disappointed by some bad moments. not like that. all i can do is just discovering myself who i am.
trying not to be a perfect but to be a better no matter what happens or what will be crashing me ahead.

i...just expect it.
i can only pray, ask to god to reassure me that i am strong.
no more sins (ok this one is fucking impossible)
or at least, no more carelessly.

2011 wishes:

Go to a favorite SHS.
Make EVERYBODY proud of me.
Make everything goes better :)
make everything i want :D
and the last thing, become a smart student (y)

and all of my sins i made, my vows i broke, nor my bad attitudes i did.
i am really sorry, from a deepest of my heart, i am just a bubblemouth boy, a bad talker, a villain :-(

let's hope EVERYTHING IS GOING BETTER for 2011.
forgive all the mistakes i ever made in the past, and i'm very sorry to have done all that. let's hope the new year 2011 could be a year of good and useful for all of us.
let's pray that God gives every blessing for all of us who celebrate this wonderful moment.
hopefully next year we could be better than now :) can be more mature each other :D

hopefully our dream can all come true and we can become more successful :D hopefully for the students who occupy the final level schools, can continue the goal by continuing to pursue higher degrees. god knows all the movements that we do and may he bless us all. amen
I fucking love you, my family, my TIMNASINDONESIA, my bestfriends, and so myself.

let's make 2011 becomes a good and an unforgotten year, just like 2009 & 2010 :)
promise me you'll never be a weak, self.

2010 was...

2010-12-31T17:29:00.000+07:00

well, 2010 was a great year besides 2009 :) i enjoyed that year so much. i love that year :)
ok, i'm gonna post about everything i got in this year:

TIMNAS INDONESIA were playing so great, i adore 'em very well :) && you can see it on a previous post
at 27th was my anniversary year with my-ex ~~ah, i know it wasn't necessary to write,no?~~
at 28th was a great day ;') no need to be discussed.
made lots of friend, got a TRUE friend :)
moving on another school :')
being underestimated at the first
being a popular cause of my-overacitve-attitudes :P
read new-moon for the first time :P
knew each-other
being a rebel like a whinny baby
broke up with my ex :") it was really sad.
got 90 on my english score on my report-card.
being wiser && wiser :D
REUNION on an elementary school &; temu-kangen.
celebrated FAREWELL PARTY on SMPN 20 :') damn, i miss it dude.
celebrated my birthday party & my ex

yeah, thats all :') i only remember crucial events.
in fact, there are STILL many things I want to write but yeah i ran out of words.
i can only say: december was my favourite month ever :')

Kita Menang, Tapi Nggak Juara

2010-12-31T08:23:00.001+07:00

Kita menang, tapi sayangnya kita nggak juara :) TIMNAS INDONESIA berhasil menjadt team tang baik bagi warga negara Indonesia, dan lebihnya, ia berhasil mempersatukan-nasionalisme-bangsa-kita :DD such a beautiful ending :')

"Prestasi Timnas Indonesia cukup membanggakan dalam Piala AFF (ASEAN Football Asosiation) 2010. Mencatat kemenangan beruntun sejak babak penyisihan grup sampai semifinal, namun gagal merebut gelar juara. Sebab, di final leg-1 kalah telak 0-3 di kandang lawan (Stadion Bukit Jalil), dan hanya mampu menang tipis 2-1 terhadap lawan yang sama di final leg-2 (Stadion Utama Senayan).

Begitupun penonton cukup terhibur dengan penampilan Markus Harison dkk setelah cukup lama tidak menyaksikan penampilan menjanjikan dari Timnas sebelumnya. Selama turnamen ini berlangsung, Timnas Garuda hanya kalah sekali, sementara Malaysia yang merebut piala tercatat dua kali kalah dan sekali draw. Begitulah sepakbola, sulit diprediksi dengan hitungan matematika atau di atas kertas. Segalanya bisa terjadi. Faktor keberuntungan ikut menentukan.

Yang pasti, kita memetik banyak hikmah dari turnamen Piala AFF 2010 ini. Dukungan penonton begitu signifikan, dan itu membuat semangat para pemain semakin tinggi, tampil ‘’all out’’ menghadapi semua lawan dan memenangkan seluruh pertandingan di kandang sendiri.

Ke depan, Timnas Indonesia harus dibiasakan bermain di luar kandang sehingga tidak patah semangat, tegang, dan kehilangan motivasi saat tampil di kandang lawan. Timnas kita pantas kalah karena tidak menunjukkan permainan terbaiknya di kandang lawan. Sepertinya ada yang ‘’salah’’ dalam tim sehingga Maman dkk tampil buruk dan membuat sejumlah kesalahan fatal di lapangan permainan.

Kondisi seperti main di Stadion Bukit Jalil, Kuala Lumpur, harus menjadi catatan pengurus PSSI. Lakukan evaluasi sehingga tim yang dibina pelatih asing asal Austria, Alfred Riedl, bisa menampilkan permainan lebih baik, lebih solid dalam strategi menyerang maupun bertahan, termasuk saat bertarung di hadapan penonton lawan.

Hemat kita, masa depan Timnas yang diturunkan dalam Piala AFF tahun ini cukup menjanjikan untuk terus dibina dengan konsep dan program khusus. Mereka (para pemain) akan dikembalikan ke klubnya masing-masing, mereka akan ikut dalam kompetisi yang digelar secara nasional, sehingga dalam kurun waktu tertentu perlu dikumpulkan guna berlatih bersama lagi. Tentu harus ada penambahan pemain, jika pemain yang ada dalam tim sekarang ini ke depannya kurang memperlihatkan grafik peningkatan. Sebab, target ke depan pasti lebih tinggi. Tidak lagi sebatas juara di Asia Tenggara, juara SEA Games 2011, tapi meningkat ke level Asia, bahkan dunia berproses secara meyakinkan. Semuanya itu sangat mungkin terwujud, tapi dengan kerja keras semua pihak, terutama dukungan pemerintah dan pengurus PSSI.

Sosok pelatih Alfred Riedl perlu dipertahankan dan diberi wewenang lebih besar, absolut, terkait teknis sepakbola. Pengurus jangan lagi mencampuri masalah teknis pemain. Fakta menunjukkan, berkat tangan dingin Riedl mencuat harapan masyarakat sehingga timbul ‘’euphoria’’ di kalangan masyarakat kita di semua provinsi dan kabupaten-kota. Semua elemen masyarakat ikut tergerak mendukung Timnas, apakah pejabat tinggi negara, dari presiden, menteri, politisi, pelajar, mahasiswa, ormas dll. Kalau selama ini sepakbola identik dengan laki-laki, dalam turnamen ini wanita, bahkan anak-anak pun ikut terlibat. Mereka datang menyempatkan diri melihat jalannya latihan, maupun pertandingan. Bahkan merebut tiket yang mahal demi Timnas yang mereka banggakan. Kehadiran pemain muda dan naturalisasi memberikan kesegaran dan semangat tersendiri bagi Timnas maupun masyarakat.

Yang patut diberi apresiasi, tidak ada kerusuhan, semuanya mengelu-elukan Timnas. Mereka sedih, bahkan menangis, ketika penalti Firman Utina gagal, ketika banyak peluang pun gagal diselesaikan menjadi gol oleh Gonzales dkk, apalagi setelah tahu Piala AFF direbut Malaysia.

Kemenangan 2-1 di pertandingan akhir Piala AFF kemarin merupakan klimaks penampilan Timnas. Hasil tersebut tidaklah jelek, karena para pemain memang sudah berjuang habis-habisan di lapangan pertandingan. Hanya keberuntungan belum berpihak kepada Timnas kita. Dan pasti semuanya itu ada hikmahnya.

Kita tidak membayangkan, andai Timnas kalah. Kekhawatiran terjadi kerusuhan oleh penonton sangat besar, meskipun aparat keamanan sudah melakukan razia ketat sehingga benda-benda berbahaya, termasuk petasan, tidak lolos masuk stadion. Kemenangan 2-1 cukup menghibur penonton dan sangat membantu aparat keamanan dalam mengamankan situasi saat sebelum pertandingan, saat pertandingan, maupun saat bubaran. Hal itu mengingat massa penonton di dalam stadion saja diperkirakan mencapai 90.000 orang lebih. Belum lagi yang tak kebagian tiket di luar stadion. Mereka menyaksikan duel Timnas Garuda versus Harimau Malaya lewat layar lebar atau nonton bareng di mana-mana.

Selamat buat Timnas, terima kasih sudah menyatukan dan membangkitkan jiwa nasionalisme seluruh elemen bangsa. Jangan besar kepala, berlatih terus jika ingin berprestasi di level lebih tinggi ke depannya. " (source: Taget timnas untuk kedepannya)

Ya tuhan, semoga aja tahun 2012 nanti, Kim bisa membawa piala yang telah ia janjikan sebelumnya :) dibantu dengan team yang solid

"
INILAH.COM, Jakarta – Tahun ini, Indonesia belum beruntung membawa trofi Piala AFF 2010. Kim Kurniawan berjanji pada tweeps (julukan bagi pengguna situs jejaring sosial Twitter) akan mempersembahkannya pada Piala AFF 2012 nanti.
Status Kim Kurniawan di timnas hingga kini masih belum ditentukan. Alfred Riedl pun sebagai pelatih timnas belum memberi kepastian posisi Kim di timnas. Seperti diketahui, Kim baru saja resmi menjadi WNI.
Meski begitu, ia berjanji pada tweeps akan membawakan trofi AFF untuk Indonesia di turnamen Piala AFF 2012 nanti.
“Indonesia menang 2:1 tapi Malaysia menang piala AFF 2010. We'll bring the Cup to Indonesia in 2012 !! Terima kasih untuk dukung INDONESIA <3,” tulis @KimKurniawan.
Selain itu, tweet ini pula berhasil menjadi tweet teratas di Twitter.
Kim, yang sebelumnya berkewarganegaraan Jerman, resmi menjadi WNI pada tanggal 6 Desember 2010. PSSI menjelaskan, meski sudah dinaturalisasi, Kim tidak serta-merta mengenakan kostum timnas. Ia harus bersaing dulu dengan sejumlah pemain papan atas Indonesia lainnya" (source: inilah.com)

But this:

"INILAH.COM, Jakarta- Kegagalan timnas Indonesia merebut piala AFF 2010 tidak hanya memunculkan isu Nurdin Halid turun jabatan, tapi juga kepulangan Irfan Bachdim ke Belanda. Kok bisa?
Setelah kekalahan Indonesia merebut gelar juara di AFF Piala Suzuki Cup 2010, pengguna Twitter mengkhawatirkan banyak hal di antaranya pemecatan pelatih timnas Alfred Riedl. Bambang Pamungkas juga dikabarkan akan pensiun dan Irfan Bachdim yang segera pulang ke Belanda.
“Irfan Bachdim mau pulang ke Belanda? Oh tidak bisa,” ujar akun Twitter Klaselia yang bingung.
“Irfan Bachdim jangan pulang ke Belanda. Riedl jangan dipecat. Bambang jangan pensiun,” ujar akun Twitter Corray.
“Tidak masalah jika Twitter saya rusak. Saya tidak rela jika Bachdim pulang ke Belanda, Riedl dipecat atau Bambang Pamungkas pensiun,” tulis akun Twitter FinaFEbri.
“Kegagalan bukanlah akhir segalanya jadi tolong untuk Nurdin Halid agar Irfan Bachdim jangan pulang ke Belanda,” tulis Chintyachintyoo.
Dilaporkan keberadaan Irfan Bachdim di tim nasional Indonesia terancam karena klub Persema tempat ia bermain hanya tergabung di Liga Primer Indonesia yang belum diakui Persatuan Sepakbola Seluruh Indonesia (PSSI).
PSSI hanya mengakui keberadaan Liga Super Indonesia. Ini dikhawatirkan mengacam keberadaan Irfan Bachdim di Indonesia" (source: inilah.com)

NO, i mean NO. big NO!!

"
TEMPO Interaktif, Jakarta -Keputusan Persema Malang pindah dari Liga Super Indonesia ke Liga Primer Indonesia membuat Irfan Bachdim harus memilih. Pasalnya, PSSI tidak bisa menerima pemain dari klub yang tidak bertanding di bawah naungan PSSI.

Manager Tim Nasional Indonesia, Andi Darussalam Tabusalla, menyatakan kemungkinan besar Irfan bakal pindah klub. "Saya sudah berbicara dengan agennya, yang juga merupakan kakaknya (Fachri Bachdim)," katanya Kamis (30/12).

Menurut Andi, sejak awal Irfan memiliki keinginan untuk bisa membela tim nasional, sehingga ia pasti berusaha mengikuti aturan yang berlaku untuk bisa tetap bertahan di tim nasional.

Andi menyatakan PSSI menetapkan peraturan pemain yang berlaga di kompetisi yang tidak diakui PSSI tidak diperkenankan masuk dalam tim nasional.

Sebelumnya, Ketua Umum Persema, Peni Suparto, menyatakan Irfan segera bergabung kembali dengan Persema. Irfan meneken kontrak dengan klub itu setahun. Irfan juga berkomitmen bermain dengan Persema bersama pelatih Timo Scheunemann. "Di mana Timo melatih, di situlah Irfan bermain,” kata Peni.

Pemain lainnya yang harus memilih adalah Kim Jeffry Kurniawan yang berdarah Indonesia dan Jerman. Persema juga sudah memastikan pemain blasteran itu bergabung dengan mereka. "Tinggal tunggu tekan kontrak saja," kata Peni.

Padahal Kim sudah menyatakan akan ikut seleksi tim nasional Indonesia U-23 Januari nanti saat menyertai rombongan tim nasional Piala AFF 2010 ke kediaman Aburizal Bakrie sebelum final.

Tapi, bila Irfan memilih hengkang dari Persema, manajer tim itu, Asmuri, mengatakan ia terancam denda membayar dua kali lipat dari nilai kontrak. Pasalnya, ia memutus kontrak secara sepihak. "Perjanjian kontrak jelas, Irfan harus memahami itu," kata Asmuri, Kamis (30/12).

Asmuri berharap Irfan tetap memperkuat klub berjuluk Laskar Ken Arok itu. Asmuri mengaku
membutuhkan waktu panjang mendekati Irfan untuk bergabung dengan Persema. Sehingga, tak elok jika klub lain tiba-tiba mengklaim telah menggaet Irfan.

Awalnya, kata Asmuri, Persema melepas Irfan memperkuat tim nasional dalam Piala AFF 2010 atas permintaan PSSI. "Ia masuk gelombang akhir," ujarnya. Sehingga setelah kompetisi AFF berakhir, PSSI harus mengembalikan Irfan ke Persema. Asmuri tak menghiraukan ancaman PSSI yang melarang pemain tim nasionalnya mengikuti kompetisi di luar Liga Super Indonesia.

Asmuri berharap PSSI mengkaji ulang aturan tersebut dan memberikan kesempatan sama kepada pemain andal di negeri ini. Menurutnya, setiap warga negara memiliki hak dan kewajiban sama. Sehingga, meski Irfan bergabung Persema dan mengikuti kompetisi LPI, ia tetap memiliki kesempatan membela Merah-Putih." (source: tempo interaktif)

NO oh my god, NO!!

that's right, huh? so please. Bachdim jangan pulang, Bambang jangan pensiun, Riedl jangan dipecat.. hope everything is gonna be better :) Indonesia LOVES you, GUYS :DD

ps: I will always love my country no matter what, especially for TIMNAS INDONESIA :D

Indonesia has won 4 times

2010-12-17T08:58:00.002+07:00

Indonesia telah menang untuk ke-4 kalinya di AFF :D

Prestasi Gonzalez di timnas gemilang meski sudah berusia di atas 30 tahun. Gol Cristian Gonzalez di menit ke 32 memastikan kemenangan timnas Indonesia atas Filipina di leg pertama semi final piala AFF yang berlangsung di Gelora Bung Karno, Jakarta.

Gonzalez menciptakan gol ini lewat sundulan kepalanya setelah memanfaatkan umpan Firman Utina ke jantung pertahanan Filipina. Bola sundulan Gonzalez sempat membentur tiang gawang sebelum akhirnya masuk ke pojok kanan gawang Filipina.

Sejak awal Indonesia berusaha mendominasi penguasaan bola dan upaya ini segera membuahkan hasil setelah di menit ke sembilan Okto Maniani memberi umpan ke arah Gonzales namun sayang tendangannya bisa diatasi oleh Neil Etheridge, kiper Filipina yang bermain untuk Fulham.

Filipina mengandalkan serangan balik yang cepat setelah bertahan Namun, Filipina membalas serangan-serangan Indonesia setelah Phillip Younghusband melepas tendangan dari jarak jauh dan memaksa kiper Markus Haris Maulana memblok bola ke luar lapangan. Di babak kedua, pelatih timnas memasukkan Arif Suyono dan Bambang Pamungkas dan kehadiran keduanya membuat serangan Indonesia agak lebih tajam.

Namun, serangan balik Filipina yang memang menjadi andalan sempat membuat Indonesia kebobolan. Di menit ke 75, James Younghusband kembali membuat repot kiper Markus, kali ini lewat tendangan melambung, namun Zulkifli Syukur berhasil menyapu bola di ujung gawang. Tim nasional Indonesia didukung oleh 80.000 penonton dan juga Presiden Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono langsung di stadion terbesar di Indonesia ini.
Leg kedua untuk memastikan tempat di final akan dilaksanakan di Gelora Bung Karno ini pada hari Minggu (19/12).

Indonesia tinggal membutuhkan hasil seri untuk bisa ke final. (sumber: detikSport)

hebat kaan :D so I'll still support Indonesia for EVERYTHING and I will always SUPPORT you, guys :'3!!

Tinggal Kenangan

2010-11-17T20:01:00.012+07:00

the tickets for Ari, Talitha, Cindy, Erlinda, and me. the details are on my tweet.

and this one is " Gaby " poster.
Ok guys, maaf ya postnya agak telat :D! Udah hampir 3 minggu nggak nge-post dan itu sangat membunuh saya, ~~fuckmyactuallife~~.
Hari-hari yang saya lewati menjadi suram. Serius deh! Yang namanya masalah, itu ada dimanapun kita memijakkan kaki, but that ain't my point.
Back to story, langsung ringkasan yang aku lihat&pahami saja, ya:
jadi dulu, Gaby itu memandang ke luar jendela, dia melihat seorang laki-laki bernama Popo, akhirnya Popo pun disuruh masuk dan mereka berkenalan. Semakin lama, mereka berdua semakin saling mencintai, hingga akhirnya jadian. Belum ada sebulan, muncul anak bernama Gita dia sang vokalis dari band,(jadi Popo itu punya band, paham?) dia agak bejat, dan yang paling utama, dia mantannya si Popo. Kepergok lah si Popo berpelukan sama si Gita, pas Gaby dateng mau latian band(dan Gaby akan menggantikan Gita karena ia dinyata punya talent). Sakit hati....sakit hati.....hmm, dan tak lama si temennya Popo yang namanya Nando, punya seorang musuh karena Nando itu pernah ngadu ke polisi, gara-gara musuhnya pake narkoba. Setelah bebas, eh malah si Popo sasarannya. Dia dibunuh dengan cara ditabrakkan ke mobil, dan...tewas. Oh ya, si Gita juga sekarat waktu itu. Tak lama setelah kepergiannya, Gaby dan cs yang lainnya datang ke danau tempat favorit Popo yang penuh dengan kabut, Gaby pernah bilang: " aku takut kalau kabut ini akan membawamu pergi jauh dariku..". Dan ternyata itu kejadian... Betapa hancurnya Gaby, lantas ia menyanyikan lagu Tinggal Kenangan dengan gitar kesayangan Popo yang diberikan sewaktu pertama bertemu oleh Popo itu sendiri. (awalnya nanti klik aja di sini, aku kan blogging via handphone, jadi pégél kalau ngetik panjang-panjang, hehe)

Sedih banget ceritanya. Aku aja sampe ~~nangis~~ terharu. Cerita yang benar-benar hidup dan dikuatkan oleh cinta sejati :'D!
Sedih pas Popo tewas. Sedih banget. Ceritanya emang keren & dramatikal. I really...love that kind, bahkan Erlinda pun juga nangis di akhir cerita :'] so, if you guys still don't watch it yet, segera lihat! Sangat bagus dan dramatikal.
Ditambah lagu itu, lagu tema awal-awal aku masuk SMPN 20 Malang, pas aku belum jadi siapa-siapa dan aku masih lumayan kuper. Lagu itu diputar ketika persami, dan You Say Aku, by Cinta Laura <3! Really miss that moment, dude!!!Pokoknya yang belum nonton, segdra nonton aja! Dijamin bakal nangis!! :D!

" Jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku, disini aku merindukan dirimu, kini kucoba mencari penggantimu, tapi tak lagi kan seperti dirimu oh cintaku..." Tinggal Kenangan - Gaby

trailer Gaby dan Lagunya :3!

Gaby on Facebook
Gaby's Video
Detail of the story
Lyric of song
Something like that
:'D enjoy..

Happy Halloween!

2010-10-31T16:42:00.003+07:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN FOR EVERYONE WHO IS CELEBRATING IT! Trick or Treat?

a Matt's picture who is found in my Tumblr's dashboard. amazing, isn't it?
oh and by the way. I did it.
I celebrated my Halloween Party last night in my friend's house. We weren't able to bring our camera, so if I find some pictures I will post it as soon.
And I also found some awesome pictures which are taken when A7X gig in London on Oct, 30/2010.

Check 'em out!!!

Rain doesn't even stop

2010-10-31T16:29:00.001+07:00

It's still raining outside, while I'm just sitting behind the window and drinking a cup of hot orange juice.
I still don't understand why every rain always represents all of my feeling.

Rain doesn't have another reason to fall. It's natural.

Setiap hujan yang jatuh membasahi tanah yang kita pijak, akan selalu memberikan makna untuk kita tetap semangat menjalani hidup ini.

Even though, we have another day to cry... Rain will remove your pain for a moment..

Shorty

2010-09-18T10:49:00.003+07:00

guys, sorry for posting a short story, lately.
I really don't know what should I write, so I post a simple story with a picture.
I'm a loner, now.
I hope I'll get better soon.

I hope you guys don't get mad at me xD

Pathetic

2010-09-18T10:40:00.001+07:00

thanks for make my hopes burn up in hell
thanks for everything but lies
thanks for the worst days

Gelukkige Verjaardag

2010-09-17T09:52:00.003+07:00

Maarja,

Happy Birthday, Bobby Pratama! Wish you healthy, success, and always be the great one!

done, ternyata ulang-tahun yang menyedihkan ini baru saja pergi. Honestly, Idk what should I feel right now. Should I feel happy? Or sad? Ah, I don't care with both.
&& I've spied by unknown people in Facebook, and they stab me. Fffuuu, they broke my day.

Dying Young

2010-09-14T09:44:00.001+07:00

Jujur aku baru tau ada film ini beberapa hari lalu -_- so fucking sad but kata mama saya film nya bagus?

that's the cover. Let's googling & youtube-ing again. maybe imdb or wikipedia can help me as always :p haha.

Be Better Than Yesterday

2010-09-14T09:11:00.004+07:00

" I tried to heal your broken heart, with all that I could. Will you stay? Will you stay away forever?
How do I live, without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burnt. Facing time always on my mind.
I have so much to say but you're So Far Away" - So Far Away - Avenged Sevenfold

How can I be the one who won't care at all if they all annoy me?
Because I know, sooner or later I'll find my own way.
And I'll try to walk through this situation.
And I know that I'm the best in.

Friendship

2010-09-14T08:58:00.006+07:00

Our Friendship Will Never Die
engaja aku post ini soalnya aku inget pas Sitti kirim sms buat makan-makan tanggal 18 nanti. Seketika itu hatiku hancur. I thought that I will never meet you again, guys :'( that kills me. I can't even life without you, without your jokes, your smile. & I hope I can go through this bad situation..
Nuff said. I lost my whole life, eh not a whole. Just partially. I feel like a paralyzed & jerk here. Everybody know & feel that too. Sebagian hidupku hilang ntah kemana. Dan itu yang menjadi beban pikiran.
I know that

yeah, that motivates & makes me think twice to do something.
Enough.

8208 - 9836 - 7309

2010-09-08T09:59:00.005+07:00

8208 is broken, 7309 wouldn't go back, 9836 is being died

find the story here. I wrote just the points, you can know the full-stories later.

Behind A Smile There Is A Tear

2010-09-05T19:07:00.004+07:00

Behind A smile there Is A Tear

well, that's like a title of something in my life.
I got a bad news and that was so ironic, Read Here, totally sad btw.

Stronghold

2010-08-30T16:06:00.003+07:00

Been hard days lately. Haters, troubles, suffers, all in one. I can't even understand why today is so fucked up. But I realize I have to face the truth, although there'll be a flying punch.
Ok, what do you think if I want to know my another friend? Is it false? No it's not. But, the step goes wrong.
I wrote a wall on Facebook, yesterday. And I hope I can be his close friend, but he talked to me that a new student shouldn't have a friend. That's cruel. Cruelest if I ask him an apologize and he doesn't reply it.
Now I see his facebook page and say: OMG, self. What was you doing? You made a trouble between that couple. You're bitch, self.

Oh god now I'm so useless in everybody eyes, I just am alone. Just make a trouble everywhere I walk. Today has been my nightmare.
And the funny thing is: I lose. I'm a loser. And he wouldn't read this. Oh god I'm so speechless. I hope he'd read and forgive me. I just want to be your close friend...

Life Is Never Flat

2010-08-22T10:34:00.002+07:00

HELLO GUYS!

I kinda lost a sense, literally. this bad situation makes me wanna suicide as well. aaaannndddd, I'm not here for it.
I gratituted because I've never got a flat life :3 yay, envy me.
&& recently, I kinda being an epic boy :3 just like

" no price on life, but life's much precious. "
" don't ever waste your time with nothing, or you'll regret as I am now. "
and many more, kinda lazy to write, hehe

and you, guys. please go to move your asses to read my epic tweets either statuses on twitter && facebook. idk why, I just feel like hearing the roars from my indeed soul. oummh, I'm blogging with a happy feeling, though I'm on a fast && maybe it was cancelled or not.
my mind products many fresh thoughts & I can write all of it on my facebook. I envied those pity kids who always get a glorious life, a respected, & all they want, they always get it sooner. I envy you, guys. but the real is:

you can't appreciate how wonderful life is.

you broke your self, as a damned doll. I feel sorry for you, and if I were you I'd like to be a best one.
and the reality:

national exam has just counting down the days.

I didn't prepare it yet, so poor my self. many homeworks & exams & troubles. get a life, I'm much better in 9th grade now, even I'm less on tweeting, or blogging (~~that doesn't appear on my dictionary. ONLINE is a first point when I just wake up and a last point when I fall asleep~~).
I feel so horrible, optimis, and nervous, lately.
pff, I hope I get a better score :] pray for me guys, and I'll do my best.

in the nearest event:

Lebaran, a winner day for all moslems.
Zombie's birthday, eew yay my birthday is on my eyes xD
Fucked pra-practice exams, is on November.
New stuffs! they're my points! hope my dad will buy me some!

OH OH && I WANT TO SHOW YOU SOME OF MY BEST EDITED PICTURES! *upload's coming soon* just wait it!

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse. ME WILL BUY THE NOVEL! Promise!
The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn. is divided into two parts, realised on November, 2011! (source: twitter)
Justin Bieber: as long as I'm tweeting, I got an issue that JB will come to Indonesia, next year. I guess that it takes an expensive ticket.
Big Photoshoots, I'll take my best and edit it on Photoshop either a Photoscape.

and guys, I'm gonna change my blog-skin!!! I always forget this one when I'm on internet cafè! uh, it's jammed me.

ANYWAY GUYS, there'll be held a reunion of 8B!!
next informations will be posted on facebook statuses or note.

see you next time!!

Unfair

2010-08-18T13:22:00.001+07:00

if you wanna stay here beside me, I'd like to make you happier than before. though.

Hi guys, kemerdekaan sudah berlalu. Kemarin, tepatnya. Dan ga ada perayaan apapun && no flag ceremony. Pretty bad.
Apa karena malas atau apa ya sehingga kemaren menjadi hari yg biasa aja. Ga ada lomba, upacara, ga ada apapun yang baru. Karnaval, atau sekedar lomba antar-desa. Ga ada. Not even one. Apa mereka pelit? Atau ga mengerti yg namanya penghargaan? Atau jadi 'males' karena puasa? Fuck you guys, it's our country and if you don't appreciate it, better you go to dumb.

Anyway, I got some pics about yesterday, upload soon ;D

Saya lagi emosi karena banyak hal:

1. Tadi kabur.
2. Orang rumah yang gak friendly sama sekali.
3. Saya tertekan habis-habisan di hidup saya yang baru.

kinda nice, sehari udah ada 3 masalah. Belum tau besok, lusa, minggu depan, bulan depan. Atau kapanpun.

2010 is unfair for me, there's no precious thing. Saya menyesal, menjejakkan kaki di tahun ini. Tapi mau gimana lagi, time turns faster than you think. Waktu dimana-mana berjalan, berputar, dan yang pasti, waktu itu kesempatan.
I kinda miss 2009 year, where I found somethings new, got a life. But now, I think I'm so useless & I hope 2011 will be better. Nuff said.
& bulan puasa ini saya gak bisa nahan emosi. How good I am.

Sepertinya nanti saya akan meledak. Using my C4 Garuda..

We've Walked Too Far

2010-08-12T06:48:00.003+07:00

" we've walked too far, walked and walked, we didn't realize how far we have walked on... "

- self.

hello guys, this week has been pretty worse, by worse I mean I have found something to do: be patiently.
oh, and happy fasting for all moslem people! hope our fasts will be accepted by God. nuff said. I got all of my problems & stopped anything & in you, self. I find out of who I am.

saya ga nyangka, akhirnya puasa datang, 2011 sudah di depan mata. padahal aku masih inget puasa 2008 kemaren, so pretty guys, 2009 kemaren yang masih makan-makan buber sama anak-anak Destroyers. not epic. dan 2010 ini, berbeda. is this just me? Or somebody feel it too? rasanya kita semua berubah. I've changed, you've changed, everybody's changing. it's a problem who catches me on a big afraid. perubahan membuat perpisahan, konyol. tapi aku 75% percaya.
perpisahan berawal dari perubahan, and I don't wanna lose you, guys. rasanya aku asing disini. nobody knows me and so do I. suasana ini berbeda 180 derajat dari tahun sebelum-sebelumnya.
is it awesome? yes. OR NOT!! I miss my old self && anything I have done && you, guys.

by many problems I get a life; saya hidup dan menghidupi setiap masalah.
know? see? feel?
those three are points of a 'problem'. I love problems and they do too.

saya hidup oleh masalah, hidup dalam masalah, dan menghidupi masalah.
setiap masalah pasti akan jadi happy ending apabila kita menyelesaikan dengan bijaksana, apalagi sekarang kan bulan puasa.
no more scoffs, no more stabs, no more angers.

Marhaban Yaa Ramadhan, sucikan diri ini dari dosa :) ntar kalo udah kotorin lagi hehe (kidding)

It's About A Way To Go

2010-08-05T12:15:00.003+07:00

HAI SEMUA :DD
kinda busy with all ~~*padahal saya ga sibuk apa-apa.*~~.

I have enough time, but too lazy to move my ass into in front of a LCD compie, (now blogging on mobile, kinda no friendly, me knows that. everybody do it too.) le sigh, boredom rules my mind.
no new activity, not even one. or not. I have it. That's a course.

Biology, English, Physics, & they make my brain full.
9th grade sucks.

last night there was ATL concert in TenDoor, just a thousand people come.
I can't imagine how it is if GaGa comes here; maybe TenDoor isn't enough. maybe there are millions people come. or not, lolya.

&& I'm still love my best friends as well. nobody's forgotten, me thinks.
Hario, Bima, Wisnu, Wahyu, and all are such my bestest best brothers. ~~*no offense how dirty-minds they are*~~ yeah they made my life, on a little class that just need a whole month (or less).

I'm like a popular-~~half-british~~-boy that sit on a corner of class; joking everyday.
Now, today is a holiday. just today.

& I did. I missed them so much than I missed my old self; I love my self now.
Though I'm bad at future, I won't come back to a past; it's pretty impossible & then I just see like I'm a child, I'm wise & clever, I'm innocent.

oh and one!
if you can answer this you'd be my bestest friend!

" what a LDR's solve if we've never met before? How long is it? why can be united? "

.

send an answer on the below.

Revanche Idea by Me

2010-08-03T13:12:00.002+07:00

hell-o guys.
It's been 31 days since I dated (that isn't important, I know.)

&& TRAGEDIES COME LIKE THERE ARE MANY KNIFES STUCK MY BACK!!

d' headline is: why tragedies come to me? why trials fight me? && why am I alive for nothing like those? *cries*
just please, a fortyish stabs me and I don't know the core. I parry that question but you debate me like who am I for you? who are you? who are we? have we ever met? have we ever talked something?
or..... Did I have a debenture with you?
Fuck off.

aku bisa hidup tanpa kamu, aku bisa. walau aku masih usia non-produktif (cause I'm still 13 years 11 months.) ya tuhan, emang aku siapa bagi kamu? please, perlakukan aku jangan sekedar antar orang tua-dan-anak. perlakukan aku seperti, hey. you're a boy, and I respect you. thanks for eating cookies, want again?

oke, konyol. aku harap aku ada di pemakaman sekarang. detik ini juga. tapi itu ga mungkin.

kalo aku ga kenal internet, aku ga bakal se-modern ini. please, you're very fulsome.
you are fulminating me. dan....saya yang terkecam disini.

buruk, padahal today is a first. and it was 31 days I went.

please ngerti, aku ga pernah nyalah-gunain internet.

I hope you understand me like.............. I'm not nothing for..you...

Guess what am I talking about? I didn't allow to using internet.

with tears.

NIGHTMARE!!

2010-08-01T15:20:00.004+07:00

VISIT OF MY LIL TREASURES

Good Morning!

おはようございます

happy friendship day for everybody and especially my best friend ˆ⌣ˆ

&& GOSH :O I GOT A FUCKING NIGHTMARE I'VE NEVER KNOWN BEFORE! full caps yay, me is getting trembled.

last night I dreamed, I leave my friends on 9H!! what a fucking nightmare!! (dan itu headline kita sekarang)
ada yang tau kenapa kita sering mimpi buruk? search an answer, here, bitches && my life screwed up. tragedi terjadi sedemikian bentuk dan rupa dan terjadi setiap hari. dan...sigh, tragedi itu bermacam-macam. what a fucking nightmare D: oh oh atau saya hanya berhalusinasi saja?
cause I often listen Nightmare by Avenged Sevenfold, lately. tapi apa itu, penyebabnya?

&& sibuk dengan kesibukan dunia saya, yang padahal saya punya banyak waktu untuk chatting *sigh*. Saya cuman malas, PR numpuk, UH bejibun, dan..... Math explanation is more bitch than Java's.
nuff, I'm anger. sigh buat siapapun hari ini! bored to the max!

with love.

Sampah

2010-07-29T20:57:00.002+07:00

“ mungkin aku terlalu mencintaimu
mungkin aku terlalu mendambakanmu
mungkin aku gila karenamu.

gak seharusnya aku kaya gitu sama kamu. mengingat diantara kita sudah bukan siapa-siapa. mengingat, hey siapa aku bagimu? cuman seutas kenangan yang akan dilupakan layaknya kertas yang menjadi abu yang siap untuk hilang...dari kalbu.

gak seharusnya juga aku naruh harapan besar ke kamu; toh kamu juga bakal lupa. toh nantinya aku cuma hal ga penting bagi kamu. siapa tau, besok? atau bahkan satu menit lagi pun. aku pasti kan kau lupakan :) I'll be forgotten by you.

layaknya; kalo kita ketemu yg baru, yg lama pasti dilupain. DAN ITU A.K.U :') pasti itu. entah berapa lama kemudian.

awalnya, aku cuma sampah bagimu. cuman bekas 'sandaran' hati bagimu. CUMAN BEKAS 'CINTA' MU :)

aku ngga posesif; aku cuma mau tau kalo aku kecewa sama diri aku sendiri. kenapa aku sia-siakan kesempatan saat kita bersama :)

Hey teman, liat gak? AKU butuh suporter, aku butuh dukungan. AKU HANCUR.”

I wish I were dreaming in my long sleep :) just wake me up & tell me what's new here.

Sweet Night

2010-07-29T20:25:00.004+07:00

HALO TEMAN-TEMAN :DDDD

Maaf banget udah jarang ngeblog. saya sibuk banget. (even though, I have a time to blogging. I was being a lazier as always) dan bimbel & dan les.
jadwal setiap-hari mulai padet, kaya hati aku. mulai membatu karenamu~ ahaha.

& saya; benci; matematika; kesebangunan. FUCKING HATE!!!
ga bisa D'': dan malas. kerjaan saya cuman baca biologi & main twitter & mendengar musik.

&& these days are being an abstarck. ternyata masalah belum surut & ditambah lagi beban pikiran saya.
dan saya ga ada ide buat nge-blog. photoshoots saya pada jelek karena akhir-akhir ini otak saya buntu ;_; oh come on, saya butuh suporter.

&& this bad: saya mendapat pelajaran bokep privat sama anak-anak setiap hari. nahloh serem kan. serem banget. mana dikelas ada yg mirip kaya Jabs.

ah gatau ah, stressed up!

Zombie

2010-07-22T12:59:00.003+07:00

HAI TEMAN!

Gambarnya bagus ya?

nyari di Google lho, hehe. && stop bitching.
Akhir-akhir ini sering mimpi pembunuhan, Zombie, bahkan masuk ke photoshop.
Gatau kenapa, yang jelas akhir-akhir ini diri saya sendiri mulai ga jelas arah nya kemana. Mulai sakit-sakitan, banyak tugas, ga sempet buka blog ~~(no, that's an alibi.)~~, ga sempet facebook an, twitteran, & catetan Wolu Bhee(dhes) a.k.a 8B juga belum tersentuh sedikit pun.
Kemarin ga masuk ;___; radang tenggorokan, sakit banget.
Mulai ada ulangan gajelas & masalah tambah banyak.
Websites di internet juga mulai terbengkalai. Ouch, kinda busy. & satu-dua yang bisa saya lakukan cuman belajar && mendengar musik. Masih mending juga ya?
Kelas 9 sucks, Rasanya pengen cepet-cepet UNAS. dan jengjengjeng.
Masuk SMA. Nuff said.
& foto yang harusnya diedit NUMPUK di folder memory card saya.

Mulai dengan hal-hal gajelas lagi. Mulai kembali kayak kelas 6.
Justwishmeluck soon. Dan yang saya rasakan sekarang " M.A.L.E.S ".
Besok jadwal ke warnet, dan parahnya I lost my photoshop sense.
Cuman berharap sama photoscape.

&& 9H GILA.
Anak-anaknya pada bokep && asik juga sih.
But the one; anak-anak rada males. Itu yang saya agak gasuka.
Ga semangat juga ding.
&& gatau mau ngomong apa lagi.

HERAN NYA, KENAPA SAYA GA BISA NGEBLOG BANYAK-BANYAK? APA IQ SAYA RENDAH?

&& that's point.

Le sigh, besok ganti skin. Ganti semuanya. GANTI SEMUA!!

&& nama saya juga berubah jadi Zee Legrand Pratama. Bagus kaan? xDDDDDD

tapi kalo di facebook? Kinda NO.

I Give My Middle Finger To Ya

2010-07-17T11:57:00.001+07:00

HELLO GUYS.

It's been a week I'm school. Holiday is over, I know. But it's kinda sucks. && I'm gonna tell you about my little treasure on 9H xDDDD envy me!
Yesterday, I was being a bitch. But now, I'm being of my life && all around me is good && I got back my luck && I'm a popular xD && shit you, I'm not here for it.
I'm here to tell you I was a winner.

New friends make my day, they get my heart :D I'm totally happy as I was there xDDD shits, grammars are bad.

&& I'm totally afraid when Mathic lesson cause I can't x( dear you self, I know I'm a jerk. && I'll learn more.

Hashh stop doing bitch.
My life screwed up, & I'm like a losing common sense.
Tragedies over there, problems come as easy as claping your hand, too many trouble now. && I'm getting error now. My brain hurts since I was 10 years, && a bitchest things are:

tragedies increased here.
&& trouble comes.

first point is I was 13 years now & I didn't allow to using internet by mom, wasn't it bitch?

second thing is why my life is so unfair?

Both are hard questions that I must answer && I must walk in.

being a rebel, lately. being anything that's bad.

last word: I'm fuken hate you, who always rule my life! Stop being anything. You just want to be called a hero. But it's over now. Even you're killing me, I will be a wild that will killing you back.

&& I need a taste now: revenge.

Broke Building

2010-07-14T17:29:00.001+07:00

Lady Cat To Show

2010-07-11T13:58:00.003+07:00

LADIES & GENTLEMEN.
HERE WE ARE.
TALKING ABOUT SHITS & DO GOSSIP.
(wait I ain't a gossip boy)
Liburan tinggal hari ini, ups I mean beberapa jam dari..sekarang. Dunno what should I do, rasanya 2 minggu kemaren itu aku tidur..tidur sampe sekarang. & I didn't feel my holiday, fuck me guys, I'm gonna block you on my list.
Beatttchh, duitku habis, pulsaku habis, & I don't want if darahku habis lol it's funny.
Enaknya gimana? Seneng apa sedih? I have two hard choices. Kalo seneng sih iya, karena akhirnya dapet uang, beli pulsa. Kalo sedih juga iya, ga bisa ketemu Destroyers lagi ;___; aku di 9H.
Stop bitching, I don't want to talk this. I'm too lazy.
Just.... Look at my daily-diary about my day.
Oh & nomer baru.
Tapi mahal. Berasa agak nyesel gitu beli yang baru, but gapapa deh. Nasi sudah menjadi bubur & siap buat dimakan, looolzz..
& during my holiday....nyokap is bitching.
Ngomeeelll mulu kerjaan nya. Ga cape apa? Enggak? Oh yaudah.

& I don't want to talking about her. Stop.
Just wish me luck & HOPE THAT NETHERLANDS WILL BE A WINNER!

Over All

2010-07-10T22:04:00.001+07:00

I want to know.
I want to
make a new thing, now.
But the times passed with nothing because that's blue.
I breathe a fresh oxygen
but it's not the same without you.

It's been a long time
No talking together, did we?
I want to
mend I want to
prove that I'm first.
I can't be perfect
but I can be your
best.
We won't be apart but
we can't be united
it's complicated.

the night lost
I thought like ghost.
I admit that I'm crazy because now you' aren't that cozy.
you may not be mine
but you're sunshine.

I was a zero
that'll be your hero.

---

& I lost my mood so this is my poem.
My fail poem.

Money Talks

2010-07-06T09:51:00.004+07:00

halo, liburan tinggal seminggu dan *sigh* saya disibukkan oleh kesibukan yang sesibuk-sibuknya. padahal ga penting, and it's holiday. Just 3 things:

1. Pulsa sekarat
2. Dompet almarhum
3. Uang jajan R.I.P

wtf, dompet saya ;__; lebih aktif di internet, especially: Twitter, Facebook, 4sq, Jawa Pos.
Demi pokoknya ga bisa nabung. sama sekali , wtfwtf I'm poor.
& karena liburan, duit jajan cuman 0 rupiah.

WTF AAAAAAA;

1. Pengen nonton Eclipse premiere
2. Toy Story 3
3. beli super SMS 30 ribu
4. buku baru
5. sepatu baru
6. dan.......hape baru,
7. ohya Harry Potter & The Deathly hallows.
8. servis hape.
9. beli nomer baru.
10. pizza-hut sama anak-anak.

ah, keperluan liburan tambah banyak :/

money talks.
It can buy anything but can't buy everything.

Demi apapun butuh duit segepok buat memenuhi kebutuhan.

& the most, I miss my pretty kitten :'( I dun wanna lose her. I love her.
Babitch sih mama, ga boleh bawa kucing. WADEPAK.

pada gila orang-orang dirumah, facebook rame, belum ke warnet juga. ah betapa suram liburan saya. wthell, untungnya ada mei (^_^)ε^ ) ♥ aaaaa jadi tergila-gilaaaa aaa post later yaaa mau sms.

Fate

2010-07-01T10:56:00.001+07:00

something is already doomed. a fate comes. the last breathe you take, is my first thing I hate.
I want you.
& you may not.
but you'll always.

you
will
never
know
what
is
your
fate.

see? fate just make you show your death. and a fate chooses you. not you to choose a fate.
it'll be a bitch if you think about how to losing your fate. you're a loser if you just defend behind your sword.

you're a star, but you don't give a light.
you're a liar, but you do a bright.

Brown Life

2010-06-28T17:01:00.001+07:00

edited by my-best-female-friend
so amazing picture, wasn't it?
I've never thought that I'm a loser while you realize I'm a winner. Darling, I have a capital life that stands of my photo-expression. So please give me a real-life and strength and candy to fight my bitterness. It's been a week I've been died and my lungs burned up cause I'll never take an oxygen without you.
It's a flourescent effect that blurs with a sharpen effect. I know I'm bad at this filthy life but I try. A few minutes passed away without a best moment. Does it suck?
Does it need of my self?
I'm a new vampire that live here. I lose my whole life and then, now I deserve my death.
Lipsticks are dry as lashes of a model.
I cry alone here without a happiness though it just a bit. Not yet.
I fix my broke self with some fuck life.

Mannequin knows why I am standing on a broke building and I'm still hoping to you that I'll never be a sunshine while you'll be my moon-light.
A brown life says that I must change my life before I lose my strength.
That's not a guarantee of my life because I was a vampire.

A simple life

2010-06-27T12:37:00.003+07:00

First, this is 27 June 2010.
Second, in today I'm dead.
Third, I'll never comeback to see my kitten again, maybe forever of bitchness.

Bitch, keadaan ini bener-bener ga memungkinkan untuk hidup lagi, my lovely cat isn't here. And it's better I die.
Sumpah, tadi tuh ya hari yg ga bakalan kelupa. 27 Juni 2010.
Kalo aku bisa milih mendingan aku mati daripada harus berpisah & sigh. Tekanan batin ini sangat membunuh saya pelan-pelan dan sangat romantis.
Keadaan orang tua yang ~~sama sekali~~ tidak mendukung, dan itu membuat saya lebih membenci semuanya.
Tadi pas dada-dada ke yipooh,
WTF DADA-DADA??!!
Udah ga bisa nangis lagi, mungkin kapan kali ya, jelasnya tadi nyesek banget kepikiran kaya gituan. Oh lord I need an oxygen now.
Dan sepertinya yipooh juga sudah tau kalo kami juga mau pindahan.
WTF I'M STRESSED OUT!!
Hari ini, jam dan detik ini.
Kehampaan dalam diri saya akan semakin melebar dengan sangat cepat dan sangat hebat. Lubang itu akan menganga lagi, terbuka lebar untuk ~~mungkin~~ selamanya.

" my lashes are dry, but with teardrops I cry it don't have a price, loving you is cherry pie.. " Paparazzi - Lady Gaga

wattefuk dan Vanilla Twilight-nya Owl City terdengar sangat menyentuh.

MY ENDING IS BAD, I'M DEAD. MY WHOLE LIFE IS LONELY.

and you'd be my fuck. I got a suck.

Destroyers's Chronicle

2010-06-21T13:02:00.003+07:00

" Sesuatu itu akan terasa lebih berharga ketika kita menghilangkannya, entah itu pengalaman, temen, atau apapun ajalah. Yang penting, jangan pernah sia-siain waktu. Karena ga akan ada lagi kesempatan yang sama." - Mommy's Quote

First, saya terkesan sama cerita Adis tentang kelasnya itu. Nah, lainnya aku dapet inspirasi juga seh.
Aku mikir, awalnya di kelas 8B itu anaknya individualisme banget, kaya ga ada kekompakan gitu. Paling engga, hampir 2 bulan. Perpaduan antar pengurus kelas && muridnya && guru-gurunya kaya gimana gitu kesannya.
Kaya perpaduan warna yang salah. Sampe paling ga, ada pengumuman kalo dikelas kita ada 2 pengurus OSIS Inti, 2 pengurus Sekbid, 2 anggota MPK. Baru 'awal mula' kekeluargaan terjadi.
Gila-gilaan bareng, dimarahin bareng, dijereng pas upacara juga pernah, dicap jadi " kelas terkotor ", sampe dicap yg aneh-aneh lah intinya, sampe pernah ikutan Remid Bahasa Inggris hampir satu kelas dan itu BARENG, spell it. TOGETHER.
Dari wali kelas yang heboh dan lucu, dari anak-anak yang nakal sampe se-rajin-rajinnya, dari gosippers di kelas, dari genk PB di kelas, sampe fans BBF di kelas.
SEMUA ADA!!
Ada yg pinter fisika, Inggris, Matematika, Indonesia, PKn, Agama, sampe Bahasa Jawa pun ada!! Ada yang nuakal, suka usil sama temen, suka nggarai, sampe momen detik ini..
Aku ngerasa aku kaya baru sebulan disitu. Ada Mey anak baru yg gaul abis, trus segala curhatan Lia, nyanyi bareng Jeffry, debat bareng Fara, sampe gila-gilaan lah intinya. Ada yg main bola dikelas, suka gitaran.
Aku masih inget pas kita ke Candi Borobudur bareng, trus kita BuBer bareng. Aku inget segala kenangan yg udah kita buat.
Harus diakui, Destroyers alias Delapan Sarap TRus enjOY & smartERS alias 8B alias apapun julukannya. Lebih gokil dari kelas 7C.
Aku mulai ngerti rasanya jadi Remaja yg bener-bener bahagia sama kalian.
Pas pembagian Try Out Primagama, aku ngerasa aneh aja.
Aku dapet ranking 1 dikelas, tapi tetep aja aku ga bangga karena itu.
Aku bangga karena kalian selalu ada, kapanpun itu.
Dan tadi pagi, aku ngerasa aku bukan yg dulu lagi. Aku berubah. Karena kalian.

Aku ngerasa yg namanya Kompak juga karena kalian sendiri.
Mulai dari hal kecil sampe besar pun.

You are my soul.
5 hari lg rapotan.
Aku ga mentingin nilai ataupun ranking, aku pengen buat semua seneng di hari akhir kita nantinya.. :)

cause I love you & I don't want to lose you.

Always Understanding

2010-06-14T12:06:00.002+07:00

First, saya puasa dan saya ga peduli mau batal apa ga. Yang penting saya mau cerita 'sekilas' penderitaan saya.

Okay, oh and HELLO mom! Ain't that you HAPPY? Ain't you killing me? Aware.

3 Things You've Ever Forgotten of Me, your b*tch boy.

1. I'm not that clever, diligent.
2. I know that I'm peeve.
3. I know that I'm not that pedant.

Tapi setidaknya, hargai dong perasaanku, Mah! Aku ini jujur aja udah capek ngalah terus. Udah capek. && you're still. Mungkin emang aku lancang ya, Mah.
Aku ini emang anak kurangajar yang kayanya ga pernah dididik. Emang dasarnya aja aku ini keras kepala. Berhati dingin. But please.
Sekali aja jangan bunuh perasaan terakhirku disini. Can't you understand??

Please.
Aku ini udah cukup sabar nahan rasa sakit yang dikekang ga boleh ini itu. Oke, aku tau mama sayang dan cinta sama aku.
Lebih dari yang kuduga.
Tapi kita emang ga pernah sejalan, mama selalu bilang ' A ' pas aku lagi pengen ' B ', begitu juga sebaliknya.
Apalagi ayah. Beuh..
Apalagi adek.
Beuh..Beuh...

Bagi mama ini adil, tapi ENGGAK bagi aku!
Bagi mama ini pas, tapi nyatanya??

Aku tau, pasti semua orang tua bakal milih yg paling dan terbaik. Tapi, ini hidupku. Aku juga berhak dong milih?

Harusnya mama support aku; bukan malah milihin yang enggak aku suka.

I don't hate you mom, neither I don't love you too.
Aku emang harus jujur di post ini.

I don't feel like you feel...

And makasih akhirnya aku dibolehin pergi tanggal 30 nanti.
I'll always love you forever as much as I can.
Don't care what will happens.
Don't worry what will happens too.

Makasih, akhirnya mama mau ngerti.
Karena ini yang terakhir. Jadi sebisa mungkin harus jadi yg spesial.
Harus.

Haha. Post-ku yg ini konyol ya.
Tapi emang bener. Mama dan aku sama-sama punya sifat keras kepala.
So? I just can say I love you mom.

4 DAYS MORE TO DIE WITH A PIECE FACE.

Premiere Eclipse @ 30 June 2010

2010-06-14T12:05:00.006+07:00

JOIN ME TO WATCHING THIS AWESOME ONE! JUST COMMENT OR GIMME MESSAGE OR TWEET ME HERE!!!
WE'RE GOING TO BOOKING TICKET AT FIRST! GO!! I'M WAITING YOU!

20 Reasons about An Internet

2010-06-13T08:57:00.003+07:00

just shut your mouth up; read and imagine it as your self.

1. You must make an account of Twitter because it ~~teaches~~ gives you about MANY informations about ANYTHING.
2. Make facebook for sure; chatting and uploading your style.
3. Make your own website or blogger if you want to TELL people about your ~~fuck~~ diary.
4. Don't stab people in an internet; or you'll go to jail with your clothe like a zebra's skin.
5. Don't be an alay or just searching existence here ~~*but me does*~~
6. Prepare your full name at your website. It's so useful thing.
7. Gossip or a hoax can make you laugh.
8. Watch youtube for getting a new videos from your favorite artist or you can upload yours.
9. Don't be a LIAR please. It's internet. An updated place.
10. Use a proper grammars and good vocabularies.
11. Read the privacy or don't ever hacked people in it.
12. If you have a good photographies. Upload on deviantart or tinypic.
13. Use English please.
14. Don't be a stupid.
15. Share your attitudes here; separated by commas.
16. Don't include your self as you include some people.
17. Maybe photoshop and photoscape are useful.
18. Don't spamming ~~*but me does*~~
19. Don't be a maniac
20. And then. Don't being a bitch here. Or you'll die with your coward face.

New Life New Everything

2010-06-12T13:45:00.000+07:00

klik untuk memperbesar :DDDDD

I am on my bussiness. I am so pretty busy && I want to make something new in my self now. Like doing anything weird. or stuffs. I'm bored with my life.

More Days To Die

2010-06-12T13:25:00.002+07:00

6 DAYS

TO MEET MY DEATH

and I am still waiting for it

Deathly Man

2010-06-11T18:20:00.003+07:00

" JUNE, 18th '10

KEMATIAN KU AKAN DATANG "

Aku berharap semoga kematian ini adalah kematian yang sangat menyenangkan dan tidak ada lagi ganjalan di manapun itu..